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follow I will introduce you to a Ginsters pasty.” Oh how I miss them.
    “Ha, yeah then you can come for a run with me to burn it off,” she laughs.
    Lacey must have ordered during my outburst and now the waiter is staring at me, pen poised.
    Now all I want is Ginsters , “Ok I will have the Sirloin, medium with Béarnaise sauce please.” The Waiter smiles and is gone.

Chapter Three
    Four glasses of wine later and my head is swimming, I really need the loo but I can feel I am at the point where it will hurt to stand but it hurts so much sitting. Ok body we can do this and bladder please, please just hold on for the next 40 steps or so.
    I stand and start walking towards the bar, the toilets are in sight and I take a deep breath as I’m not exactly steady on my feet right now.
    As I pass the bar I can see the guys from the pool earlier and the one who offered to ‘help’ is smiling at me, I smile back to be polite.
    “Hi again,” he beams at me as he leaves his friends and makes a beeline for me.
    No, no, no, no…I’m barely managing to walk in a straight line, I’m bursting for the toilet and the last thing I need right now is to stop and make chit chat. I need to pee, in fact, I think I am going to pee!
    “Hey again,” I immediately turn the same red as the walls. I think to myself – the last time I saw you , you saw a lot more of me than intended.
    “So your clothes are holding up tonight then?” There’s a dirty grin on his face as he eyes me up and down.
    His demeanor, upturned shirt collar, greased back hair and over white teeth are giving me the creeps.
    I grimace at him, “I should hope so, not coming off anytime soon.”
    “Oh now that is a shame. I’m Guy by the way,” He reaches out his hand.
    What the heck, did he really just use one of the worst chat up lines on me? My devil has donned her boxing gloves and is ready for action, my angel is with her but using her as a shield.
    He runs his hand over his greased hair checking it’s still intact, he has the most unsettling twinkle in his eye. 
    I laugh out of shock.
    “I’m Ellie.” I shake his hand, ok I really need to leave now, think on your feet woman.
    “I’m really sorry but I am bursting for the loo,” I smile and turn on my heel to leave but as I start to move away I feel his hand on my elbow.
    “Come, have a drink with me, after your visit of course.”
    I’m genuinely unsure if that was an offer or a demand. Now I’m shifting my weight from one foot to the other like a petulant child waiting to be allowed to leave class for the loo.
    “Sorry I’m with my friends, maybe another time.” ‘Please take that and let me go, ok - make it official I am going to christen this floor right now.’
    I pull my arm free from his grasp and he takes a step back.
    “Rain check?” he asks with one eyebrow raised.
    I nod and with that he turns away and resumes his place with his friends.
    Wow the pain in my bladder is immense and it feels like all the air has been sucked out of the room. Too much wine Ellie, way too much wine!
    I turn to walk away and who is walking towards me….Yep Mr. Hollywood himself and he’s smiling at me.
    Wow that smile has melted me completely, I can just about hold my muscles down there closed. He’s wearing a grey shirt with a thin black tie and black trousers, he looks every part the Hollywood star and I can hear the gasps of people around and the small mutter of over excited females. I smile back and it must be the effect alcohol has on me because I suddenly feel shy, then again it could be the fact that it’s not me he’s smiling at. I look down at the floor tucking an escaping lock of hair behind my ear, why do I feel shy? One of the duo is back in my ear, Miss devil is wearing an all in one red cat suit chanting ‘ Don’t make eye contact ’ wow she’s being bossy tonight.
    I can’t help myself; I glance up at him and he’s stood in front of me, I feel I should bow at his feet. I stop the