Bethesda with soups for me. My own parents, after dropping me in D.C., flew to Europe for a vacation, their first time abroad. They donât know yet that Iâm this sick.
Each day the hundred other guys on my floor herd past my closed door, laughing and firming up friendships. I live in New South, a dorm of hard-charging strivers. One midnight as my throat aches thereâs a thump out in the hall, followed by love grunts. A toga party is raging downstairs in the common room and some probably-sheet-clad guy and girl are getting Roman up against my door.
âIâm going to fucking rupture you,â growls the guy.
âYes,â begs the girl.
âGonna split you in half.â
The girl makes a sound of agreement. Then theyâre screwing against my door. Each time they bang against it I feel it in my swollen tonsils.
âScootch me higher,â yells the girl.
I send telepathy through the door.
Please donât scootch her higher
.
âKeep drilling me!â
Please stop drilling her
.
âOh yes! YEEEEEEEESSS!â
I put my pillow over my head. Who in the hell are these people? I try to imagine any girl Iâve ever met telling me, out loud, to keep drilling her. Or for that matter to
start
drilling her. I had a couple second-base experiences in high school, but Iâm still a virgin . . . Saint David. I pull my pillow tighter to my head to drown out Orgasma Girl. Finally she and her battering ram move on and I sleep.
I dream of the path. I miss it: the Black Creek woods, the tart northern air, the shadows. Even from my dream, I pray to the Lord who somehow lives in that darkness back home.
Where are You in this new place? Iâm sick. Please help
.
A voice cackles from above: âA-HAW-HAW-HAW-HAW!â
Is that You, Lord?
âA-HAW-HAW-HAW-HAW!â
I lurch awake. The cackling is music blaring from the room next door. My clock says two a.m., and the song pulsing through the wall is ZZ Topâs âLa Grange.â Itâs the go-to song of the guys next door, Pike and Brett. They play it about thirty times in a row whenever they come home drunk, which is virtually every night.
I burrow my head under my pillow again. When the music quits, my room phone rings. I pick up but can barely speak a hello.
A male voice says sneeringly, âThis is the SS.â
The line goes dead. My ears, clogged with mono, are unsure of what theyâve heard until the phone rings again a minute later and I answer.
The same male voice says, âWe are the SS. The train is coming for you.â
I get similar calls for several nights. Iâm enfeebled enough by the monoâand I guess innocent enoughânot to comprehend whatâs up until one night when I force my pained vocal cords to answer.
âWhatâs the SS?â I croak.
âAw, fuck.â The voice on the other end leans away. âHey, man, I think itâs the roommate.â
âThe Jew-mate,â laughs a voice in the background.
âWhatever. Goldmanâs not there.â The line clicks off and âLa Grangeâ kicks into gear next door.
Pike and Brett, prank calling. Duh, Schickler.
When my monoâs contagious stage is past, Adam returns to our room, but the late-night calls from the SS still come. After answering them, Adam often storms out and pounds on Pike and Brettâs locked door, challenging them to come out and fight him. They never open up. They just guffaw at him from their cave. One morning after such a night, Adam helps me walk down to breakfast in the dorm cafeteriaâIâm too weak to go aloneâand there Pike and Brett are, showered, eating pancakes, looking like good little Boy Scouts. Adam could lay into them, but he sticks with me, his hand guiding my elbow.
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ANOTHER WEEK PASSES and Iâm still not well enough to leave the dormâI get dizzy just stepping outsideâbut my voice has