Not a very attractive image, especially if I wanted the cast and crew to think I was okay.
After a few minutes of deep breathing, I splashed cold water on my face, careful to avoid my mascara.
I was numb as I walked back to rehearsal. I hadnât seen it coming, me , the girl who had so carefully traversed the dangerous world of high school cliques.
Monet rushed up to me as I reentered the auditorium. âDev told me what happened. Connor is a complete moron to break up with you in front of the entire cast like that!â
âYes, he is,â I replied, âbut Iâm an even bigger one for trusting him in the first place.â
âWhy donât you skip rehearsal tonight? Everyone would understand,â she said.
I plastered a fake smile on my face. âThereâs no way Iâm giving Angie Vogel the satisfaction.â
I walked over to Dev. âWell, what are we waiting for? Letâs get this over with,â I snapped.
He looked at me sympathetically, which made me want to punch him.
âWhatâs your problem?â I said. I was being a total bitch to him and it wasnât even his fault, but I couldnât seem to help myself.
Dev didnât respond to my nasty behavior. Instead,he flipped open his playbook and gave me my prompt.
I tried to keep my mind on my role, but I couldnât help dwelling on my current situation. The breakup would be all over the school tomorrow and there would be no possibility of spinning it that it was a mutual decision. Not after the center-stage dumping Iâd just received.
Chapter 6
T he next morning I woke up with a sore throat, watery eyes, and a fever.
I dragged myself to the kitchen table, where Mom had breakfast ready. I poured myself a glass of orange juice. It hurt to swallow, but I gulped it down.
âYou look terrible,â Mom said. âYou must be coming down with something.â She picked up the phone.
âWhat are you doing?â I said.
âCalling the absence line, of course. You canât go to school like that,â she said.
âNo!â I said. I would be crucified if I didnât go to school. Everyone would assume Iâd slunk off to lick my wounds.
âI mean, Iâm fine, Mom. And I have a test today that I donât want to miss,â I lied, I hoped believably.
Mom put down the phone, but she didnât look convinced. âSophie,â she hesitated, but then continued, âiseverything okay? I havenât seen Connor around here in a few days.â
âMom, everything is fine. I see him every day in school. And we have rehearsals.â All of which was true. I did see Connor; I just left out the part where he was ârehearsingâ with someone else now.
I would have to tell my mom that Connor and I broke up. Eventually. But I needed time this morning to get ready and if I told her the truth, Iâd never make it in time.
Post-breakup wardrobe was crucial. I couldnât look like a trollop or a nun. No black, despite its slimming effects, or people would say I was in mourning.
I was kind of regretting the pint of Baskin-Robbins Monet and I had downed the night before, but it was a ritual weâd indulged in since the seventh grade when Stan Reno dumped her for a cheerleader. Heâd had breath like a pit bull with indigestion, but Monet had been crushed.
âFinish your breakfast,â Mom said. âAnd take some daytime cold medicine.â
Thinking about the breakup had made me lose my appetite, but I managed to force down a few more spoonfuls of oatmeal, which seemed to satisfy her.
I went upstairs and dug out my favorite designer jeans and a turquoise top. The perfect looking-good-but-not-trying-too-hard outfit. I used about a bucketof concealer and a little bit of blush to put some color in my cheeks. Even my hair cooperated, and I went to school confident that I looked my best.
I ran into Vanessa outside before first bell. My prediction was