a real secret engagement for a while? How about it?â
âNot me,â I said, remembering everything Iâd ever heard from Liz about the opportunism of men, how they will sometimes dedicate with seeming goodwill thirty days and nights, sleeping and waking, of truth and deceit to the achievement of a momentâs pleasure. âSecret engagement! Some might agree to a plan like that, but not me.â
Then I knew he liked me, because he walked around the table and played with the curls of my home permanent a minute and whispered, âThe guys would really laugh, but I get a big bang out of you.â
Then I wasnât sure he liked me, because he looked at his watch and asked it: âWhere the hell is Lizzy?â
I had to do the shopping and put off some local merchants in a muddle of innocence, which is my main Saturday chore. I ran all the way. It didnât take very long, but as I rattled up the stairs and into the hall, I heard the thumping tail of a conversation. Browny was saying, âItâs your fault, Liz.â
âI couldnât care less,â she said. âI suppose you get something out of playing around with a child.â
âOh no, you donât get it at all â¦â
âI canât say I want it.â
âGoddamnit,â said Browny, âyou donât listen to a person. I think you stink.â
âReally?â Turning to go, she smashed the screen door in my face and jammed my instep with the heel of her lavender pump.
âTell your mother we will,â Browny yelled when he saw me. âShe stinks, that Liz, goddamnit. Tell your mother tonight.â
I did my best during that passing afternoon to make Browny more friendly. I sat on his lap and he drank beer and tickled me. I laughed, arid pretty soon I understood the game and how it had to have variety and ran shrieking from him till he could catch me in a comfortable place, the living-room sofa or my own bedroom.
âYouâre O.K.,â he said. âYou are. Iâm crazy about you, Josephine. Youâre a lot of fun.â
So that night at 9:15 when Mother came home I made her some iced tea and cornered her in the kitchen and locked the door. âI want to tell you something about me and Corporal Brownstar. Donât say a word, Mother. Weâre going to be married.â
âWhat?â she said. âMarried?â she screeched. âAre you crazy? You canât even get a job without working papers yet. You canât even get working papers. Youâre a baby. Are you kidding me? Youâre my little fish. Youâre not fourteen yet.â
âWell, I decided we could wait until next month when I will be fourteen. Then, I decided, we can get married.â
âYou canât, my God! Nobody gets married at fourteen, nobody, nobody. I donât know a soul.â
âOh, Mother, people do, you always see them in the paper. The worst that could happen is it would get in the paper.â
âBut I didnât realize you had much to do with him. Isnât he Lizzyâs? Thatâs not niceâto take him away from her. Thatâs a rotten sneaky trick. Youâre a sneak. Women should stick together. Didnât you learn anything yet?â
âWell, she doesnât want to get married and I do. And itâs essential to Browny to get married. Heâs a very clean-living boy, and when his furloughâs over he doesnât want to go back to those camp followers and other peopleâs wives. You have to appreciate that in him, Motherâitâs a quality.â
âYouâre a baby,â she droned. âYouâre my slippery little fish.â
Browny rattled the kitchen doorknob ten minutes too early.
âOh, come in,â I said, disgusted.
âHowâs stuff? Everything settled? What do you say, Marvine?â
âI say shove it, Corporal! Whatâs wrong with Lizzy? You and she were really