Iâm afraid of snakes, you understand. You just have to be in a certain kind of mood to appreciate them.
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Next morning, early, Mother got up and drove Grandma back out to her place. Soon after that I got up and levered myself into the kitchen, where I made some toast and another cup of coffee. I set the little pond frog out on the back stepââThe pond is thataway,â I told him, but I figured he already knew that, being an animal. Animals are born knowing whatâs most important for them, and they donât bother with anything else, which is something about them Iâve always respected.
I was feeling about ten times better by then, and was even starting to feel like a busted leg didnât necessarily have to mean that my entire life was ruined. Itâs hard to be gloomy on a morning such as that, with the sky a bright blue and the first rays of the sun poking theirway into the kitchen. Our house is a cheerful place, I must say. Ma had it fixed up very nicely, with hand-sewn curtains in all the windows and the whole place always in a dust-free state. A number of my dear departed dadâs creations could be found throughout the place, too: furniture, lamps, a clock. Dad was very handy with a set of tools. Heâd built the addition on our house, in fact, and also Brotherâs shed, as well as his own workshop, which used to stand where the pond is now. That workshop was where he came up with his inventions. Most of his gadgets werenât useful for anyone except us, but there were a few things he managed to patent. That was partly how we lived, in fact. Royalties were still coming in from one of his widgets. It wasnât millions, but since we owned the house and land, that and his life insurance was plenty to keep us going, as long as we didnât suddenly develop a taste for designer clothes.
Mother came back around ten. I could see right away she was in one of her snitsâsomething Grandmaâd said to her about the way she was raising me, no doubt. The two of them got along like dogs and cats most of the time. I just let her be. She went upstairs to her bedroom and closed the door. I knew sooner or later sheâd get worked up enough to the point where sheâd have to come down and give me a lecture, and then it would be out of her. It always came down to something Iâd done wrong, somehow. In this case it was climbing the barn. All right, I admit that was one of my more boneheaded moves. Every little escapade of mine was like a miniature nuclear explosion: There was always fallout, sometimes lasting months. And this was definitely the biggest bomb yet.
When, oh when, are you going to learn? sheâd wail. I tried so hard to turn you into a lady, not a man. If only your poor father were still aliveâitâs too much for one person to take on by herself, this child-raising business. And I would point out to her that it was mostly Dadâs fault I turned out the way I did, if fault was even the right word, which I didnât think it was. He was the one who taught me how to ride, how to climb, how to fish and hunt and swim. If I didnât know betterIâd think Dad would have preferred a boy instead of a girl. Matter of fact, he would have been more suited to a son, but we never held our personal shortcomings against each other, and they never slowed us down any. Heâd been my best friend up until the day he diedâwe did everything together. I know heâd been looking forward to having a kid, period. Even if he was disappointed on the day I popped out, he never showed it. He just went ahead and did all the things with me he would have done with a boy, and we had high old times. That was a long time ago, but there wasnât a day that went by when I didnât remember some little thing heâd done or said, or for that matter that I didnât use something heâd made with his own two hands. Poor old Dad. Poor old Mother. Poor