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it’s not a big deal? You fucked off, just like you always do.  You left me behind without a word or nothing, and now you think you can just crawl back into my life and that’s it.  Who do you think you are?  You’ve messed up my life and now you’re determined to mess up Jake’s, as well as Matthew’s.  Well all I can say is ‘Well done.’  I think you’ve achieved that no end.” 
    I bite my tongue at my words.  I probably went a little too far , but I couldn’t help it.  I’ve never told mum how I feel and it’s about time I put my foot down and tell it like it is. 
    “Why are yo u so bothered about Jake anyway?  What’s the deal with you two?” 
    My heart starts pounding and Jessie looks to me like she’s suddenly trying to think of a way to rescue me. 
    “Nothing ok ay, I’m just upset with you.”  She shakes her head obviously not amused by my answer.  Then she dives in.  I was completely unprepared for what she was about to say next. 
    “Maybe Alan’s actions weren’t completely brought on by his own doing.” 
    I gasp and visibly shake as I try to grab a hold of the kitchen counter.  Jessie —seeing my reaction—orders my mum to get out of her house and never return.  I cannot believe my own mother just said that.  I can’t believe she doubted that the actions of Alan were never brought on by anything I ever did.  It pains me that she thinks I led him on.  I was only a child for fuck’s sake.  How could she feel that way? I’m her daughter, someone she is supposed to love unconditionally. 
    Jessie drags my mum out of the door, making sure she slams it right behind her.  She then runs back to the kitchen, turns the stove off and leads me to the living room.  My legs are like jelly.  I don’t know how I make it there, but I somehow do, with Jessie’s support. 
    “I think I know wh at happened with this Alan guy.  Am I right?” 
    I nod my head. 
    “What a fucking bitch.  How dare she.” 
    I tell her the story about Alan and she listens without interrupting.  She’s visibly shocked and extremely pissed at my mum for what she said. 
    “Ana, you don’t need that shit in your life.  Your mom sounds like poison to me and poison that’s deathly to you.  I wouldn’t normally say this to people about their own mother, but I think you should keep your distance from her.  She’s bad news and you’re old enough now to do without that kind of grief.  Wow, I never knew a mom could be that evil.” 
    The tears start and she pulls me to her, stroking my hair.  She’s trying to comfort me and my heart feels lighter by her actions.  She’s right of course.  I’m now old enough to make my own decisions and I can decide to live without a mother if I wanted to.  She never really was one anyway.
    “I know I’ve said this before , but I can stay if you want me to?  I feel bad about missing your birthday.” 
    “Honestly , Jessie, I’m fine.  Michael called; he’s picking me up after eight, so I’m good.”  She swings around and grabs her bag pulling out a little present. 
    “I got this for you.”  She pulls out the card she mentioned earlier and places it on the table.
    I frown as I don’t recognize the writing, but quickly turn my attention back to the present.  I open it up to take a look, and I’m completely taken aback by what she’s got me. 
    “Jessie, you little bitch , what am I supposed to do with this?”  I’m laughing so hard now as I turn it on.  It buzzes straight away in my hand. 
    “ Ana, if you need me to explain that to you, then there’s obviously something missing in your life.  I just thought, you know, since you may be lonely in that room all by yourself, you might need some company.  They’re not the same, but they help during the hard times, believe me.” 
    I snort, “Well, thank you—I think.  I’m on my period at the moment so that would be a bit messy.” 
    “You know, funnily enough so am I ,