thinking, So what? But she didnât say it. It would only have been her defiant streak talking, anyway.
She didnât really want her private business all over town, and Flynt was only trying to protect her from the evil tongues of town gossips.
At heart, he was a good man. She knew that. It was just that heâd gotten himself all turned around inside, after what had happened with Monica and their baby.
For one beautiful night eleven months ago, Josie had let herself hope that he might learn to forgive himself and leave the past behind. But in the harsh light of the following day, sheâd learned the true power that guilt can have over a manâthe kind of power a mere woman could never overcome.
And right now, well, best to look on the bright side. At least his eyes were clear and she couldnât smell liquor on him. âWhy are you here, Flynt?â
He looked surprised suddenly. âYou donât know?â
âIf I did, I wouldnât be asking.â
Narrow-eyed, he studied her face some more. Then he shook his head. âNot like this, all right? Not with you in there and me standing out here, whispering over the damn windowsill.â
âAll right. Where are you parked?â
âDown around the corner.â
âGo on back to that fancy pickup of yours. Iâll be there. Five minutes.â
He glared at her as if he didnât trust her to do what she said sheâd do.
âGo on,â she whispered. âI said five minutes and I meant what I said.â Before he could start barking orders at her again, she hooked the screen, pulled down the window and drew the shade.
âIâm out of bath beads, Mama,â Josie called as she went out the front door. It wasnât really a lieâshe was out of bath beads and she would stop at the store before she returned to the house. âIâm going to run down to the Stop ânâ Save.â
Her mother nodded and waved and went on watching TV.
Josie rushed out into the darkness, wondering what in the world was the matter with her, to be in such an all-fired hurry to get to the man who had broken her heart.
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She didnât make him wait.
Flynt had barely climbed back into his pickup when she was knocking on the passenger door. He reached across the seat and opened it for her. She got in and shut the door, trapping them in that small space together.
He looked the other way, out the window over the driverâs door. But it didnât help. His mind, his whole being, was centered on her.
He said, âYou sent the money back.â
âYes, I did.â
âI wanted you to have it.â
âI pay my own way. But thank you. I did need it at first. Then, as soon as I could manage it, I paid you back.â
âJosie, Iââ
She cut him off. âNo. No more about the money, please. You know me, deep down. You know I couldnât keep it. It wouldnât have been right.â
He wanted to argue with her, that the money wasnât much. That there was no point in her not having it. That she needed it and he didnât.
But he let it go. She wasnât going to take that money, no matter what he said.
Instead he asked, âYou did all right, then? Up there in Fort Worth?â
âI did just fine.â
Why did he feel soâ¦hungry? A hunger that was more than just wanting to get his hands on her. He wanted to know about her, about what sheâd been doing, what sheâd been thinking, what sheâd seen, what sheâd cared about. He wanted to know everything. Everything that happened, every breath she took, for the past eleven months.
âYou got an apartment?â
âI took a room, with a family. The price was right, and they were good people. It worked out fine. And I found a jobâtwo jobs, really.â
He thought about Lena, wondered where she fitinto all this, how Josie had managed. Two jobs, a room in someoneâs house, and a
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