haunting, and sensual. I was lost. As each song came and went I realized that I was listening to an absolutely unique sound. There was so much love and pain; so clear, so agonized, so raw, and yet so precisely directed and produced. I stared wide-eyed at Lindsey, who threw his arms around me and whisperedinto my ear, âYou like it, donât you?â Richard pushed the stop button on the twenty-four-track tape machine and the room fell deathly quiet.
âLindsey, I donât know what to say. Itâs incredible. I love it. Oh my Godâ, I said, swallowing back the lump in my throat, âthis is the most amazing album! Itâs going to be huge!â
Christineâs delighted laughter rang out as Mick jumped up with the mirror in his hand and, with a bow, ceremoniously handed it to me. So thatâs what Mick meant when he said it was a white Christmas? That mound of snow? I looked at the mirror, looked at Lindsey, and said in a hesitant voice, âUmm ⦠no thanks. Iâll take a rain check. Have to work!â I hoped Iâd passed whatever test it was meant to be.
Lindsey eased the mirror out of my hands and took a rolled-up twenty dollar bill from Christine. I hadnât fooled him. Heâd realized Iâd never done a line in my life and wouldnât know where to start. âMake a line, inhale it. It wakes you upâit, well, it just keeps you going. You donât have to do any if you donât want to.â He offered it to me again and I shook my head. I wasnât sure why he was pleased that I didnât want any, but I could tell that he was. I was as embarrassed as hell that I was so unsophisticated. I watched in fascination as the five of them made huge, messy lines and inhaled them through the rolled-up bill, straight up their noses. Almost immediately the room was filled with frenzied voices and nervous laughter. John and Christine quickly lit their Marlboros, while Richard and Lindsey shared a joint.
ââGold Dust Womanâ needs somethingâ, Lindsey announced through the smoke. âItâs not atmospheric enough.
So
⦠we brought some sheets of glass and set up microphones in the parking lot. We want to record the sound of splintering glass and work it into the song.â
Mickâs eyes fired up with a devilish gleam. He rubbed his hands together fiendishly. âI want to be the one who gets to crash the glass! Me, me! Iâm the tallest! Iâm the best glass-breaker in the frigginâ world!
Letâs do it!â
He scampered into the rain with Richard by his side. I stayed in the control room with Lindsey and listened to the hysteria from the parking lot booming through the huge speakers in the room. It took Richard five minutes to stop Mick from laughing, but once he did, the sound of breaking, shattering glass was recorded. The finished version of âGold Dust Womanâ begins with an unearthly tinkling that sounds dark and ominous.
It changed the whole vibe of the song. This was the first of many times that Iâd see Lindseyâs genius at work.
I looked at my watch and with a start realized that Iâd been in Studio B for almost two hours. âMy God! I have to go! Iâve completely abandoned poor Bob Ezrin and his new band!â A shadow crossed Lindseyâs face and he seemed about to say something. I knew he didnât want me to go, but I had to. I leaned over, kissed him on the cheek, yelled goodbye to John and Christine, and flew out the door. Lindsey called after me, âLeave your number on your desk! I need to talk to you about something specialââ
âOK!â I shouted back and returned to my abandoned work, the songs Iâd just heard resonating in my head.
I left my home phone number propped up against my desk calendar. I hadnât figured out yet how I was going to end my relationship with John. I didnât want anyone to get hurt. But what could you do when