I t was two more days before I saw Ana . I n that time I saw little of William . W e spoke only long enough for me to find that she wasn’t home yet. It had been five days since I had “gone missing.” I decided I was going home that evening whether Ana showed or not. I didn’t owe her anything, and I was beginning to doubt I would find any answers about why she had done this to me anyway. I dressed in dark blue jeans, black DC shoes, and a fitted aqua blue tank. I was on my way out the door, not knowing if I were going to be coming back or not.
As I made my way toward the kitchen door I felt a hint of anger, but wasn’t sure why . I wasn’t angry-I was nervous, a little scared, but I wasn’t angry. I was still feeling confused about the mixed emotions until I arrived at the kitchen and found Ana sitting at the table by herself; looking for all the world like an avenging angel.
“Ah, you’re why I feel angry, when I’m not. Why is that exactly?” Her eyes were glowing their usual turquoise and gold; they weren’t black so I knew she was controlling her anger with me at leaving.
“You’re feeling a hint of my emotions because I am your Sire, just as I can feel yours, but I can sense you more intensely than you do me. It is supposed to let me know when you are in danger, it helps me find you--should you go missing .” She emphasized the last, letting me know that my leaving wasn’t going past her notice, and she could find me if I didn’t come back.
“Why did you do this to me? What did I do to you to make you hate me so much that you’d want to take everything away from me?” I couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe ; I silently begged for her to answer me this time.
“I don’t hate you. I didn’t plan for this to happen, I knew you saw me for more than just a doctor after that first time you noticed me.” She was speaking in a hushed whisper, “that night, I wasn’t going to turn you. I’m sorry, but we can’t let humans know who or what we are. There aren’t many laws of our kind but the few we have are punishable by death if broken. I was ordered to kill you because of your discovery. If yo u hadn’t figured out what I was or if I would have been able to compel you into forgetting me, I would have left you alone. If I let you live knowing what I was, I was sentencing myself to death, possibly William as well.”
I didn’t speak, didn’t want to break the spell ; there was more to it, and I wanted her to finish it. Why did she change her mind and turn me when her original intent was to just kill me?
“Earlier that night, I made my way into the security office and put the parking garage cameras on a loop so nothing could be seen. I was planning on killing you and leaving you next to your car to make it look like a mugging that went bad, possibly by an angry patient.”
There is something incredibly unnerving hearing about the planning of your murder in such a calm, logical reasoning. I wanted to sit down . I wasn’t sure my legs were going to hold out much longer, but I didn’t want to get any closer to Ana either. I stayed standing where I was.
“You know the images you saw with that old man?”
“How do you know what I saw?” I was suddenly nervous at this prospect.
“I don’t know what you saw, but I know you saw something. It doesn’t happen with everyone . I could tell you were seeing something by the reaction that came from you. You were gaining strength from his blood, but you were in control ; you would have pulled away when I said stop. Then everything about you shifted, and you had these feelings of over-whelming love just pouring from you. I knew for sure that you were seeing images of something.”
“His wife, I was seeing his wife. I was feeling his love for her.”
“Well, it was the same when I was with you . I started seeing images of you when your sons were born, you rocking them to sleep, and I saw you making love to your husband.