bucks and bigger revenge on the rat fink lying weasel dog. Hunky guys next door were not part of her plan. And in case she was tempted, she needed to re member what had happened the last time sheâd thrown herself at the guy in question.
Heâd taken one look at her naked body and vomited. There was a lesson thereâone she would do well to re member.
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E MILY K ENDRICK SQUEEZED her eyes as tightly closed as she could. She squeezed until her whole face hurt and she thought she might squish her eyeballs. She clenched her teeth, raised her shoulders and held her breath until the burning went away. Then she relaxed.
Okay. Better. She wasnât going to cry. Not here. Shewasnât sure why she thought she shouldnât give in to tears. It wasnât as if someone had told her not to cry. The message came from inside herâthat scary dark place that got bigger when she thought about the summer with her dad and her mom going away and how nothing had been right for a long, long time.
She could hear noises from downstairs. Something clanged onto the stove. Before, she would have giggled at the thought of her dad cooking. Heâd done it sometimes, on Sunday morning or when sheâd been sick and heâd stayed home with her. Then heâd made fun stuff, like grilled-cheese sandwiches cut up into the shape of a boat, or caramel corn theyâd baked in the oven. Heâd always let her help. Heâdâ
The burning came back. Emily sucked in a breath and willed it away. She wouldnât think about before. About when things had been good and her dad had tossed her in the air and told her he loved her and her mom had laughed all the time. She wouldnât think about that, or how one day she and her mom had gone away and her dad had never, ever found them.
She walked to the bed sheâd made so carefully and picked up Elvis. The worn rhino fit into her arms the way he always had and that made her feel better.
âMommy left us,â she murmured into the bare spot behind his earâthe place she always whispered her secrets. âShe left last night after she tucked me in bed and Iâm mad at her.â
Emily didnât want to be mad at her mom, but mad was safe. She liked being mad right now because when she was mad she didnât care so much.
âWe have to stay the whole summer and be with some lady because my dad has to work. Heâs the sheriff.â
She didnât know what being the sheriff meant. Heâd been a policeman before. Sheâd liked how he looked in his uniformâbig and brave and sheâd known he would always keep her safe. But then heâd let her go away and daddies werenât supposed to do that. They were supposed to be with their little girls always.
She didnât want to be here, Emily thought as she stared at the door to her room. Sheâd begged her mother to let her stay home. Sheâd promised to be good and clean her room and not watch too much TV, but it hadnât mattered. Her mother had brought her here and had left her.
Emilyâs stomach growled. She was hungry because she hadnât eaten much dinner the night before.
Slowly, carefully, she opened the door and stepped into the hallway. The house was old, but nice. Big, with a second floor and lots of big trees. Her mom had told her that the ocean was real close and that her dad would take her to play on the beach. Emily had liked that but hadnât said anything.
The stairs creaked as she walked downstairs. She could still hear her dad in the kitchen. She smelled bacon and maybe pancakes and her mouth began to water. Her grip on Elvis tightened until she was afraid she would pop him like a balloon. Finally she hovered at the entrance to the kitchen.
The room was big, with lots of windows. Her dad stood by the stove. He looked so tall and strong and just like she remembered him. For a second she almost ranover to be picked up and hugged. She wanted