have been noticed on a night
which was not completely dark. The odd thing about it was, it didn't
seem to have a source. There was nothing but the glow. I walked through
it, stood in the middle of it, looked in all directions, and there was
nothing but a faint blue radiance.
I ran back to the fence, climbed it and hurried back to the house.
Sheila was in the bedroom, in a shortie nightdress (in this extraordinary
summer, most people wore less than that at night), about to go to bed. We
had left a very important discussion hanging in the air. But this was
something I had to share with somebody, and Sheila was my wife.
"Sheila," I said breathlessly, "I want you to come and look at something
outside."
"Where? Not in the garden, for heaven's sake?"
"In the copse."
She laughed in protest. "Like this?"
"It'll cool you down. And no one can see."
On the point of protesting further, she saw I was deadly serious and
realized it would probably be quicker in the end to humor me than to
argue with me. She put on shoes and we went down the garden.
I was afraid it was going to be like those frustrating incidents in
detective stories where the hero takes the cops to the murder apartment,
only to find the body's gone, the signs of a struggle have been removed,
and even the bloodstains have vanished.
However, as I helped Sheila over the fence she saw the glow and suddenly
became reluctant to go further because she thought there was something
instead of because she thought there wasn't.
"What is it?" she whispered, making no move forward.
"I don't know. YoU do see it?"
"Of course I see it. But what is it?"
After a moment or two she came further into the copse with me, and
together we tried all the things I had already tried alone -- looking
among the branches for the source of the light, at the sky through the
leaves, at the still river beyond, under the bushes.
Sheila's reaction was exactly the opposite of mine. The less I understood
the glow, the more I wanted to find out about it. More practically,
perhaps, Sheila satisfied herself that it was a mystery and was then
quite prepared to give up.
"Well, we've looked," she said reasonably. "There's nothing else to
see. Whatever it is, it's staying put. Let's go to bed and look in
the morning."
And that's what we did. I wasn't sorry, though, that I'd made Sheila
come and look. I wasn't imagining things. There was a radiance in the
wood with no source.
Later, Sheila wanted to talk about something, but it wasn't the radiance.
"I did hurt her, Val," she said, watching me. "I'm bigger than she is
and a lot stronger. I thought, well, after all, she's a naughty kid and
she needs a lesson. I meant to beat her up and I thought it was going
to be fun, like that time when . . . "
She stopped, and although I had followed her thought I said nothing. She
was thinking of that other time when I had thrown Jota all over the
place, fighting mad, hardly knowing what I was doing, and Sheila had
watched and been quite happy about it, because it was me who was doing
the throwing and Jota who was being thrown, and because of what had
happened before that.
But Dina wasn't quite the same.
"It didn't work?" I said.
"No."
"I didn't think it would."
"Well . . . don't you mind? Was I terribly wrong to . . . to do what
I did?"
"I don't know. I don't suppose so. When any kid's on the wrong track you
talk to him, try to persuade him; and I guess if you don't try giving
him a good hiding you're missing a bet . . . But you can't beat sense
into Dina."
"But you don't mind?" Sheita insisted.
"I don't see that it's anything to do with me," I said.
When we got to bed, more friendly toward each other than for a long
time, I thought it would be a good idea to do something about it. But
nothing happened, and Sheila made no move, merely saying "Good night"
in a tone which seemed to contain finality. So a chance was lost, like
a thousand others.
Chapter Three
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