laboring through lunch, never taking a sick day, not even once.
âThe organization appreciates your commitment.â Mr. Peterson picks up an invoice, studying it. âWeâll have to find you something to do for the next two days.â
This response, I expected. Mr. Peterson plays by the rules. He wouldnât wish for me to start my new role before it was officially announced.
âI have a suggestion.â I lean forward. Writers for my collegeâs online magazine are always yapping about how managers like employees to take initiative. âSusan at reception needs help in the mornings. I could cross-train with her, arrive early and lend her a hand, be her relief person when she goes on break. This would broaden my skill set.â I use as many of the buzzwords as possible.
âThatâs a suggestion.â Mr. Peterson frowns at the paper, his cheeks turning an alarming shade of pink. âBut, as Susan doesnât report to me, your cross-training might cause conflict within the organization.â
I should have known this. My stomach twists. My boss would never interfere with another managerâs department.
âI have other ideas,â I lie. I have no other ideas. âIâll make a list.â
âBelinda, ummm . . . I should probably tell you that ummm . . .â My boss falls silent, his mouth moving, as though he wants to say something yet canât, the words stuck in his throat.
People never have trouble communicating good news. My palms moisten. I canât lose the full-time job. My mom counts on my paycheck.
âAllow me to make the list, sir.â The desperation in my voice makes me inwardly cringe. âYouâll see how committed I am.â Iâm the right employee for him. I know this.
Mr. Peterson sighs, his chubby cheeks puffing out. âDo that. Make your list.â He sets the invoice on top of one pile. âIâll review it tomorrow.â He doesnât look at me, his attention on the papers in front of him.
I stand. âThank you, sir. I wonât let you down.â
I return to my desk, determined to work even harder. Tonight, Iâll draft the best damn list of initiatives Mr. Peterson has ever seen, knocking his sagging socks off. He wonât have any reservations about hiring me.
Dru smiles smugly at me as I sit down. I curl my top lip. I know she caused my bossâs doubts similar to the way she caused me to doubt him.
Thinking sheâs won, that sheâs secured the full-time position with her antics, my troublemaking coworker doesnât attempt to do any work. She props her feet on the desk and chats on the phone.
Dru doesnât know that Iâve dealt with girls like her my entire life. I write the next financial supporterâs name on a reminder notice. Tara, my high school tormenter, had been the worst, making those years a living hell for me.
I address the envelope, giving the wealthy supporter the personal touch he expects. Tara also taught me more about fashion than any magazine ever has. If I wore an ill-crafted knockoff to school, sheâd ridicule me for weeks. I quickly learned how to distinguish the good fakes from the bad fakes. This is a skill I continue to use today.
I havenât gained any new skills from associating with Dru. My coworker twirls her fingers in her hair. I ignore her and work like a woman possessed until noon. Dru leaves for a two-hour lunch. I run out of the office, purchase a hot dog from a corner street vendor, and return to eat it at my desk.
There should be no more confusion about which one of us deserves the full-time job. I put extra effort into my penmanship, making each reminder notice a thing of beauty, the gold ink gleaming on the black card stock. Dru spends the afternoon filing her nails and reapplying her makeup.
At ten minutes after four oâclock, Mr. Peterson opens his door and stands on the threshold. I look up from the reminder notice
Xara X. Piper;Xanakas Vaughn