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yeah, but it’s not just that. I want to make my mark on the world with this thing, somehow and some way. I need help to do that, I know, but I don’t have the luxury of acting dumb.”
    “Miss 4.0 GPA? You’re hardly dumb, Jess.”
    “I’m not talking book smarts, I’m talking street smarts. My heart is a 2.0 GPA at max.”
    “Don’t be so tough on yourself. You have a heart of gold and that’s why everybody loves you.”
    “And why I always end up getting crapped on…I naturally assume that others feel the same way,” I said. I began to pace around and then walked into my bedroom and plopped on the bed, my legs flying up in the air as my head hit the pillow.
    “I don’t mean to hurt your feelings and I’m going to say this again…you have got to get over the entire Seth thing. The guy was a jerk. Hell, lots of guys are jerks, but you can’t let them dictate every emotion you have. At some point, you, the woman with a heart of gold, is going to have to trust somebody and let them in.”
    “Books, papers, and research, they all make sense,” I said. “People are so wild.”
    “If you can handle Trinity and me, you can handle anything. Don’t you think?”
    “You two are different, you’re easy to trust and understand.”
    “You’re so caring and compassionate about anyone who can’t really impact you personally, Jessie. You have to start letting yourself get impacted.”
    I started to giggle, my mind going down a gutter. “I probably do need to get impacted, but who has the time? I don’t have rock star boyfriends waiting to catapult me to the moon with their intense desires for me.”
    “OMG, you’ve lost it. Just say sex, Jessie, I dare you.”
    “Sex,” I said and then I stuck my lip out.
    “Get some, okay?”
    “No way, no time.”
    “Well then, just be okay with Simon being all-business and don’t over analyze it. The two of you are exactly the same that way, you know.”
    “And that’s about the only way, I think.”
    “That blows the whole opposites attract thing, I guess,” Brynn said.
    “Opposites attract, hmph. I’ll admit that I may have a bit of attraction, but clearly Simon does not. I’m just his next business proposal.”
    “Stop complaining, you’re getting what you want, right? A partner for your cause?”
    “Okay, guilt tripping me, Brynn? Really?”
    “You did that all yourself, Jessie.  But look, I’ve got to get going. Do you feel a bit better, at least?”
    “Yeah.”
    “Good, love ya and call me if you need anything, okay?”
    “Okay. Nite Brynn.”
    “Nite, Jess.”
    It was so hard for me to understand how I could hold onto the past and discredit myself for having learned from it, but I did. It was my Achilles’ heel, apparently. Seth was eons ago and I didn’t even know where he was living in this world, but he’d somehow managed to stay alive inside of me, festering.
    Maybe I should switch my cause to a more progressive Seth Eradication one. And then there were the similarities of thought process between Seth and Simon. They looked at things with calculating eyes, not an emotional heart. For a woman like me, a little could go a long way with that approach to life. But Simon, oh Lord, he was so appealing to me that it frustrated me.
    Bam!
    The pillow got the punch I’d built up inside of me.
     
     

Chapter Eight:
Friendly Competition
     
    Kudos to the comfortable king-size beds at Loews Hotel. Boo to Jessie Martineau, who’d managed to ensure I had a somewhat restless night’s sleep regardless of the comfort I was lying upon. I just didn’t get what had changed so quickly last night? We were clicking, talking about some amazing plans and having so much fun and then she changed just like that, faster than the wind changes course on an ocean. Why?
    Despite not having committed to the idea verbally yet, I was pretty much invested in it logically. It made sense and was a stellar move for Blaze Line’s kick-off. Ideal exposure, really. Maybe