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L.A. in July. I think I will miss the rain most of all. To think that soon I will never again feel its gentle touch is enough to bring me to tears as I sit there on this slope, overlooking the 5 Freeway, with the horses behind me and the rain on the back of my neck.
    Saddest of all is that I soon will be buried six feet underground, too far to feel the rain. I do not want to be cremated. I want to rot. I deserve to rot.
    I know if it wasn’t for Numi that I would be leaving this world alone. Of that, I have no doubt. Yes, I’ve had my share of women. Perhaps more than my share. I’ve loved many, perhaps too many. I’ve broken many hearts. Definitely too many.
    Yes, many women have come and gone. But now they are just gone. Every last one of them.
    As if they were never there.
    If not for Numi, I would be doing this all alone. If not for Numi, perhaps I would be dead now, I am sure of that. I have not spoken to my mother in many years. At last count, over ten. She blamed me for my brother’s death. I blamed me, too.
    Numi is different. He makes no judgment. He only loves in his own way. And his way is by being there for me. Numi holds out his hope for a cure. He believes that if there is breath still in me that I might still pull through.
    I bring up my knees with some difficulty, using my hands to help, and now I rest my chin on the back of my hands as they rest on my knees. I close my eyes and listen to the rain, which drowns out the freeway sounds far below. I sit like this until I am soaked and shivering, knowing this will be my last rain.
    And now my heart breaks all over again.
    Finally, I stand and continue down the slope, down to the park far below, slipping once or twice in the mud. My balance has been off for many months now. Numi would be pissed if he saw me now.
    I head over to the spot where my brother disappeared nearly twenty-two years ago. Disappeared, that is, for all of two weeks. He was found later, of course. In a different park.
    Laurel Canyon.
    Where Olivia was found.
    Two bodies, both found in Laurel Canyon, separated by twenty-two years. One an adult female. One a nine-year-old boy. One was my friend. The other was my…
    I take a deep, shuddering breath.
    With the last of my strength, as the rain slants nearly sideways, I go to work searching the area again. For perhaps the millionth time. Always looking for clues.
    Always searching for answers.
    Always searching, searching…

CHAPTER EIGHT
     
    We are sitting in my living room.
    Her name is Mary Blaylock, and she is the grief counselor assigned to my case. She visits me once a week, and will do so until the case is closed. Her case is closed when I die.
    Mary has long blond hair and a slightly-too-big nose. Call me superficial. I notice things. Still, the slightly-too-big nose is not a deterrent, since I find it regal and proper and confident, and there’s a lot of sexiness to those three qualities. I’m sure she can sleep well at night knowing that. Especially with that honker.
    She is sitting in the love seat with her knees together and a clipboard on her lap. Her hands are folded on top of the clipboard. A black pen is Velcroed near the top of the clipboard. I can see her taking the time to buy the Velcro, to cut it carefully and apply it to both pen and clipboard. She seems like that type of person. Meticulous, exact, and…
    Wonderful.
    She sits with her back straight and does not lean into the cushions. She’s either had etiquette training or her posture is naturally perfect. Her nose is not that big, actually. It’s just slightly long and comes to a sort of point. Her face is lovely. Her lips are full but not too full. As the weeks keep piling upand I keep not dying, I begin to look forward to her visits. I even look forward to her nose, which I am now rather fond of.
    As she adjusts her long skirt, brushing it out from under her so that it doesn’t get wrinkled, as I look at her slender ankles and smooth calves and take in the hint