looked at me with startled eyes and nodded. âDid you hear anything, Nicholas? Run to the door and listen; was that a sound of footsteps?â
âI opened the outer door and peered into the darkness; but it seemed the world ended here with the warmth and the light: beyond could extend only winter and silence, a region that, familiar though it was to me, seemed now to terrify me like an enormous sea.
ââItâs stopped snowing,â I said, âbut there isnât anybody there; nobody at all, Mother.â
âThe hours passed heavily from quarter on to quarter. The turkey, I grieved to hear, was to be taken out of the oven, and put away to cool in the pantry. I was bidden help myself to what I pleased of the trembling jellies, and delicious pink blanc-mange. Already midnight would be the next hour to be chimed. I felt sick, yet was still hungry and very tired. The candles began to burn low. âLeave me a little light here, then,â my mother said at last to Martha, âand go to bed. Perhaps your master has missed his way home in the snow.â But Mrs Ryder had followed Martha into the room.
ââYou must pardon my interference, maâam, but it isnât right, it isnât really right of you to sit up longer. Master will not come back, maybe, before morning. And I shouldnât be doing my bounden duty, maâam, except I spoke my mind. Just now too, of all times.â
ââThank you very much, Mrs Ryder,â my mother answered simply âbut I would prefer not to go to bed yet. Itâs very lonely on the heath at night. But I shall not want anything else, thank you.â
ââWell, maâam, Iâve had my say, and done my conscienceâs bidding. And I have brought you up this tumbler of mulled wine; else youâll be sinking away or something with the fatigue.â
âMy mother took the wine, sipped of it with a wan smile at Mrs Ryder over the brim; and Mrs Ryder retired with Martha. I donât think they had noticed me sitting close in the shadow on my stool beside the table. But all through that long night, I fancy, these good souls took it in turn to creep down stealthily and look in on us; and in the small hours of the morning, when the fire had fallen low they must have wrapped us both warm in shawls. They left me then, I think, to be my motherâs company. Indeed, I remember we spoke in the darkness, and she took my hand.
âMy mother and I shared the steaming wine together when they were gone; our shadows looming faintly huge upon the ceiling. We said very little, but I looked softly into her grey childish eyes, and we kissed one another kneeling there together before the fire. And afterwards, I jigged softly round the table, pilfering whatever sweet or savoury mouthful took my fancy. But by and by in the silent house â a silence broken only by the fluttering of the flames, and the odd far-away stir of the frost, drowsiness vanquished me; I sat down by the fireside, leaning my head on a chair. And sitting thus, vaguely eyeing firelight and wavering shadow, I began to nod, and very soon dream stalked in, mingling with reality.
âIt was early morning when I awoke, dazed and cold and miserable in my uncomfortable resting-place. The rare odour of frost was on the air. The ashes of the fire lay iron-grey upon the cold hearth. An intensely clear white ray of light leaned up through a cranny of the shutters to the cornice of the ceiling. I got up with difficulty. My mother was still asleep, breathing heavily, and as I stooped, regarding her curiously, I could almost watch her transient dreams fleeting over her face; and now she smiled faintly; and now she raised her eyebrows as if in some playful and happy talk with my father; then again utterly still darkness would descend on brow and lid and lip.
âI touched her sleeve, suddenly conscious of my loneliness in the large house. Her face clouded instantly, she