obviously didnât want to talk no more so I took the Black Bald disc out and put the radio on.
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Sean said he couldnât be around for our sleepover, and later that night he wasnât. It was just me and Kyle in my room at two in the morning.
âDo you urinate frequently?â the man on TV asked. The wildest commercials came on TV late at night. âIf youâre sixty-five or older and you canât control your bladder, this commercial is for you.â
I sat on my bed with my back against my wall. âWhat you think about this commercial?â I asked Kyle.
He was in my wheelie chair at my desk, playing on my computer. Kyle stopped, spun toward the TV, took one finger, and pushed his glasses up his nose. He did that whenever he was figuring something out. Kyle nodded twice. âItâs whatever, whatever.â He got back on the computer.
I switched channels.
Trying to stay up with Kyle without Sean was kind of wack. Kyle was the quietest of us. Laid-back. He didnât rush into things and didnât get excited fast. He thought maybe three times before speaking or acting once. I respected how he thought deep about things because I could be that way too. But Kyle was that way 24/7. His mood was âDo you, I do me. Mind your business, I mind mine.â At other times, I liked being more like Sean. Sean could just be wild. Since Kyle couldnât be that way, trying to bug out with him right now was tough.
âFifty-two shots and all you cats drop. Pop. Pop. Pop. Donât even step on my block.â
Finally! I found something good on television. Blackâs new video. âYeah, Black!â I said.
Kyle was feeling the video because he nodded to Blackâs beat. He made his voice low like how Black sounded and rapped Blackâs rhyme:
You wanna come to where I rest and disrespect? Punk, youâll get checked, wrecked. Iâll break your neck.
I made my voice as deep as Kyleâs and jumped in to rap Blackâs next part with him. Kyle turned around to face me, and it was almost like we were battling, barking Blackâs words at each other:
You on the wrong side of the tracks.
Trace back your footsteps to where you live at Before you get smacked and jacked.
On that last word, me and Kyle started laughing. I didnât know why. We just did.
âOh man,â Kyle breathed out hard. âThat was fun.â But then he went back to playing his game.
But I was still pumped from rapping and wanted to keep going. You corny, Kyle, I thought. Back on the computer. If heâd been Sean, he wouldnât have done that. Me and Sean probably wouldâve started freestyling. Made up our own rhymes. Had a rap battle.
I wondered if Sean was up right now. I had energy and didnât know what to do with it. I changed channels until I found another video I liked.
âKyle, you saw this one?â I was about to raise the volume when I looked at my digital clock. It was 2:15 in the morning. My mom would flip if I turned it up.
I left the volume alone.
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Out my window I heard the stoop door slam, but nobody was there when I checked. Sometimes, at four, five in the morning, you didnât need to watch TV to stay up. Just watch my stoop. People argued and fought down there. Drunks, crackheads, drug dealers. Right now, I couldnât tell if the stoop door slamming meant drama.
Kyle was laid out on my bed. Asleep. Even though the television was on. His eyes half open and rolled up in his head. He maybe could sleep through a fire. I turned off the television and there was another slam. I went back to the window. What I saw bugged me out.
âSean, baby.â Sean and his mom stepped off the stoop. âWake up.â
Sean was half asleep and standing wobbly like he was about to fall over. His mother put one hand under his arm to hold him up. She had a small suitcase in her other hand. Tiny enough for a weekend trip. I backed a bit out of the