But it hadnât mattered. Everything had shattered around me. I couldnât take another week of crazy-intense drama.
I finished grooming Charm and tacked him up. He lowered his head, making it easy for me to bridle him, and I slid the reins over his neck. I put on my helmet and walked him to the indoor arena. Heather and Jasmine were inside, both girls just mounting their horses and starting their warm-ups.
I stopped for a secondâsaddened by the first thought that popped into my brain: Callie wasnât in my classâ and I was glad.
When Iâd first started YENT lessons without her, Iâd been devastated. She was on the advanced team and I wason the YENT and Iâd felt alone without one friend in the arena. We both hated not being able to ride together every day. But now, I was glad. If Callie and I had to practice together every day it would be beyond uncomfortable. Practices werenât going to be about boys or best friendsâthey were going to be about riding. And I was going to make up for my ridiculous last couple of lessons by wowing Mr. Conner from now on.
I mounted Charm and guided him to the wall. He settled behind Phoenix, Jasmineâs gray gelding. Ahead of us, Heather and her darker chestnut, Aristocrat, trotted forward at an even pace. Aristocrat was a top-notch horse, but Heather also knew how to bring out the best in him. Heatherâs black boots gleamed, her fawn-colored breeches were spotless and, like always, her white polo shirt was horse hair free. It was still a mystery to me how she managed that.
I let Charm walk for a couple of strides before easing him into a trot. His movements were smooth and he followed behind Phoenix, but didnât tailgate. We made several laps around the arena, every one of us focused on her horse. Jasmineâs gaze, intense as always, was narrowed between Phoenixâs ears. She kept a tight grip on the reins and didnât give him any room to move freely.
Mr. Conner walked inside and stopped in the arenaâs
center. He had a thick notebook in one hand and a Canterwood Crest travel mug in the other. Steam rose from the top and he took a sip.
âHi, girls,â Mr. Conner said. âBefore we get started, I want to let you know that next week I will be taping a lesson to share with Mr. Nicholson.â
Mr. Nicholson was the YENTâs head scoutâheâd chosen all of us for the team.
âIt will be a regular class and thereâs no reason to think you need to schedule extra practice sessions or to worry,â Mr. Conner continued. âYouâre all doing fantastic and Iâm sure Mr. Nicholson will agree.â
But my brain was barely able to process the last sentence. Jasmine and Heather were doing fantasticâCharm and I werenât! We needed to work harder before Mr. Conner filmed the lesson. Otherwise Iâd look ridiculous next to my teammates. Iâd have to make room in my schedule to ride more. I started making a mental list of things I could cut out of my schedule.
âI donât want the camera to throw off anyone during the taping, so Iâm going to start bringing it to classes,â Mr. Conner said. âIâll set it up but leave it off so that you and your horses get used to seeing it.â
We all nodded.
âLetâs get started, then,â Mr. Conner said. âI want to work on flying lead changes today. You were all asked to perform them during your test for the advanced team, but we havenât practiced them for quite a while.â
My stomach dropped. Charm and I could do flying lead changesâmost of the time. But it had been forever since weâd done them.
âFlying lead changes are a natural movement for horses,â Mr. Conner said. âBut sometimes, a horse gets lazy and forgets how to pay attention to signals for a flying lead change.â
Jasmine covered a yawn as if this conversation bored her.
âWeâre going to work