myself descending the stairs toward him. I wasnât alone; an old woman was praising him effusively for his efforts, her voice thin and quavering, and he glanced at her abstractly, as if heâd heard her words a thousand times before and had little use for them. A few others handed him last-minute checks. He smiled and pocketed them without looking at the amounts. The room was nearly empty by then. I hesitated, a few feet back, waiting, but then he saw me, and before I could retreat he spoke.
âDid you have a question?â he asked.
âI enjoyed your talk,â I said. âBut I didnât bring my checkbook.â
âWe have a Web site where you can contribute.â
âIâm a physician, actually,â I said, which caught his attention.
âAre you interested in volunteering?â
âIâm not sure,â I said. âMaybe.â
âWe could probably use you,â he said. âLet me give you my card. Please contact me anytime.â
He pulled it from his shirt pocket, and handed it to me.
âHow did you get into this work?â I asked, taking the card. It was thick cream, embossed with gold letters, like something a banker might offer, or a lawyer.
âThatâs a long story,â he said.
âWhen are you going back?â
âNot any time soon,â he said. âItâs where I belong. But Iâm much more useful here. Someone needs to raise the money. Thatâs what keeps us going.â
I was about to reply when the projectionist, who had descended from her booth, touched him lightly on the shoulder.
âI donât usually do this,â she said, shyly. She was a small, thin woman in her late seventies, and Iâd seen her before, from a distance, at other lectures. Standing beside her, I realized that she had a fine tremor in her left hand. It leapt out at me like a flag: she had early Parkinsonâs disease. I knew it at a glance, and I was sure that no one around us, least of all Scott Coles, had any inkling of this fact. Iâve had that experience many times over the years, the sense of secret knowledge that my profession has given me, and yet, as she opened her checkbook, I found her affliction unexpectedly moving. She hunched over the podium, and wrote a spidery sum carefully on the line, the final check of the evening.
He thanked her sincerely, and smiled, and then she turned away and filed out with the others. I waited as he picked up his bag.
âWhere are you going now?â I asked.
âI was going to get something to eat,â he said.
âLet me buy you dinner,â I said, impulsively, though Iâd already eaten. âIâd like to hear more about what youâre doing.â
He gave me a quick, assessing look.
âAll right,â he said, after a moment. âIf youâre serious Iâd be happy to talk about it. But I canât stay long. I need to get an early start tomorrow.â
âI understand,â I replied.
âI didnât catch your name,â he said, extending his hand. âIâm Scott.â
CHAPTER SIX
It was the most expensive restaurant in town, along the main street, an easy walk from the lecture hall. It was the kind of place visiting parents took their newly grown children, and the negotiations of adult roles began. Sons and daughters, boyfriends and girlfriends and introductions. Weâd taken Eric there a lifetime ago, for his high school graduation, and toasted him.
We stood outside in the warm evening.
âThis is fine,â Scott Coles said, glancing at his watch. It was a little after eight. Though the restaurant was only half full, it took nearly fifteen minutes to be seated, and five more before the waiter appeared.
As I ordered a salad, I expected him to choose something similarly modest. But without hesitation he ordered the fillet medium rare, a full bottle of merlot, and an appetizer.
âYouâre not eating