whilst letting the sacred beat of the music course through our souls.â
âNo thanks,â I said, brushing past him and going straight to my room.
A moment later, he followed sans girls.
âOh, come on, Eug. Itâs gonna be a blast. Weâve got a cooler of beer and everything.â
âSorry, Tim. I donât really feel like being a squaw tonight.â
âThatâs a derogatory term.â
âI know it is. Very much so. But your bleach-blond posse out there doesnât deserve much better.â I eyed him askance. âDonât even think about bringing any of them back here tonight.â
âYeah, yeah, I know the rules.â He flounced into my wicker chair. âSo what are you going to do instead? Shop on the Internet? Work puzzles?â
Iâd actually been thinking of doing both those things, but I wasnât about to tell him that.
âHey, Iâve got stuff to do.â
âFuck, Eugenie. Youâre becoming a hermit. I almost miss Dean. He was an asshole, but at least he got you out of the house.â
I made a face. Dean was my last boyfriend; weâd broken up six months ago. The split had been kind of unexpected for both of us. I hadnât expected to find him screwing his real estate agent, and he hadnât expected to get caught. I knew now I was better off without him, but some niggling part always wondered what about me had made him lose interest. Not exciting enough? Pretty enough? Good enough in bed?
âSome things are worse than staying home alone,â I muttered. âDean is one of them.â
âTimothy?â one of the girls called from the living room. âAre you coming?â
âOne moment, gentle flower,â he hollered back. To me he said, âYou sure you wanna hole up here all night? It isnât really healthy to be away from people so much.â
âIâm fine. Go enjoy your flowers.â
He shrugged and left. Once by myself, I fixed a sandwich and shopped on the Internet, exactly as heâd predicted. It was followed by a puzzle depicting an M. C. Escher drawing. A bit harder than the kitten.
Halfway through, I found myself staring at the puzzle pieces without seeing them. Rolandâs quiet, fierce words played over in my head. Let Jasmine Delaney go . Everything heâd told me had been true. Dropping this was the smart thing to do. The safe thing to do. I knew I should listen to himâ¦yet some part of me kept thinking of the young, smiling face Wil had shown me. Angrily, I shoved some of the puzzle pieces aside. This job wasnât supposed to be about gray moral decisions. It was black and white. Find the bad guys. Kill or banish. Go home at the end of the day.
I stood up, suddenly no longer wanting to be alone. I didnât want to be left with my own thoughts. I wanted to be out with people. Clarification: I didnât want to talk to people, I just wanted to be around them. Lost in the crowd. I needed to see my own kindâwarm, living and breathing humans, not undead spirits or magic-infused gentry. I wanted to remember which side of the fence I was on. More important, I wanted to forget Jasmine Delaney. At least for tonight
I threw on some jeans and the first bra and shirt I could find. My rings and bracelets always stayed on me, but I added a moonstone necklace that hung low in the shirtâs V-neck. I brushed my long hair into a high ponytail, missing a few strands. A dab of lipstick, and I was ready to go. Ready to lose myself. Ready to forget.
Chapter Three
Iâd been people-watching for almost an hour, so I saw him as soon as he walked in. It was hard not to. The eyes of a few other women in the bar showed that I wasnât the only one whoâd noticed.
He was tall and broad-shouldered, nicely muscled but not over the top in some crazy Arnold Schwarzenegger way. He wore khakis with a navy blue T-shirt tucked into them. His black hair was not quite to
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