Lori grumbled, poking at her eggs with her fork.
âIâll make you a peach one when you get home,â Mandy offered. âTo take away the bitter taste.â
âThatâs a nice offer.â But even Mandyâs prize-winning peach pie wasnât sweet enough to take away the bitterness that Wade Hoffman brought with him when he came home to Marker Ranch.
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I T â S ONLY GROCERY SHOPPING , Wade reminded himself. People do it every day. You get your wallet and step out of the truck and go into the store and shop. But he stayed where he was, white knuckles on the steering wheel, because shopping wasnât simple anymore.
First of all, now that he was back in Benson, he never knew what kind of reception heâd get. Some places he went, people were fairly friendly. But there was still plenty of suspicion attached to the Hoffman name. He was tailed at the pharmacy as if the clerk thought he was going to run off with all the cold medicine. And whenever he went into the bank, the security guard provided a personal escort for his entire visit. A special perk they provided just for Hoffmans, apparently.
And then there was PTSD. Combat had messed with his perceptions. A loud noise like a motorcycle could suddenly sound like a machine gun. And once he heard it, heâd be on the floor, rolling for shelter, regardless of where he was or who was nearby.
Wade pried his fingers off the steering wheel and exited the cab. Leaning on his ancient truck, he stared at the Blue Water Mercantile. Its weathered sign with a grinning fish jumping into the air was a vintage monument to the 1960s. The Blue Water was out on the outskirts of Benson and far less crowded than the market downtown. But despite all that, Wade was on edge. He just kept imagining himself perusing the aisles, a shopping basket on his arm, and a Harley going by on nearby Highway 395. The Benson gossips would have a field day talking about how poor Wade Hoffman hit the decks, firing a baguette like it was an M60.
He had to man up. A guy who couldnât even go buy a few groceries was pathetic. Plus, it was early, so he shouldnât have to worry too much about loud noises. His sister, Nora, who was hell-bent on fixing his PTSD, had advised him to shop in the morning, before things got busy. He had no excuse. It was time to find some courage and buy some food.
He shoved himself away from his pickup and strode to the market door, only to find it locked. He shook it once before realizing the sign read Closed. Feeling foolish, he pulled out his cell phone and glanced at the time. Seven oâclock. Sleep had eluded him last night, so heâd rolled out of bed at first light, relieved to be free of the nightmares that plagued him. But he hadnât realized it was still so early. Guess that was what happened when his day started at 5 a.m.
Frustrated, he turned to go, wondering what to do with himself in the hour before the store opened. The tinkling of a bell behind him had him turning to face Dan Sanders, the store owner.
âWade, youâre up early today.â
He could feel his face flush. He was a former army ranger. Since when did he blush like a girl? âYeah...sorry to bother you. Didnât realize quite how early it was.â
âWhy donât you come on in?â Dan asked. âYou can get your shopping done now. Itâs fine. And Iâve got coffee brewing if you want some.â
âThanks,â Wade said, following the older man into the shop. Dan had thick gray hair and a kind smile. Heâd always been good to Wade and Nora, slipping them food and sweets when they were young and their dad forgot to feed them.
He accepted the cup of coffee Dan handed him and sipped it black. Its sharp taste was just what he needed to wipe away the last few cobwebs of the night before.
âHowâs everything out at the ranch?â Dan asked. He had a ledger open on the counter. Wade must have interrupted