“Thanks.”
“Anytime,
brother. I love you man.”
“Love
you too.”
“I’m
going to go get an update. Be right back, okay?”
I
nodded at her and didn’t say anything as she walked toward a desk with a couple
of cops standing around it. I took a deep breath and barely had a moment to
think before Jessie sat down next to me. “You okay?” she asked me.
“Of
course not, Jess. How did this happen? Fuck, we’d all been so careful.”
“I
know, Ryder,” she cried. “This feels like a nightmare. I can’t believe this is
happening. You and Ev don’t deserve this.” She placed her hand on my back and
tried to comfort me.
I
was going to respond but the sound of Danni’s audible cries caught my
attention. She had been silently crying ever since we’d gotten to the police
station and wouldn’t let anyone near her. We hadn’t really spoken because we
were both crippled under the weight of our own grief. I knew how desperate I
felt, being terrified for the love of my life, but I’d only known her a little
over four months. Danni had loved Everleigh like a sister for more than twenty
years.
Everyone
tried to stow their emotions for our sakes but everyone was so worried about me
that I think people were forgetting Danni in all this. Seeing her breaking down
in that moment, I knew she was the only one that could truly feel my pain. I
stood up for the first time in three hours and walked to where she was sitting
with her knees pulled up around her face.
I
sat next to her and without saying a word, I lifted her chin so she could see
me and I pulled her into my arms. She looked at me for a split second before we
both broke down together. Everyone that knew Everleigh loved her but there
weren’t two people in the world that loved her more than we did.
I
knew there was so much we wanted to say to try and calm ourselves, but neither
of us could find the words as we held onto each other, consumed by our mounting
pain. I held onto Danni as she cried for what seemed like hours. I didn’t
realize anyone was around us until I felt Jessie’s arms hugging me around my
back. I opened my eyes and blinked through my tears to see Sadie, Jude, Beau,
and Kris all huddling down around us, joining Danni and me in a group hug. I
looked up to see John still standing, and he had glistening tears in his eyes
as well. He was always so tough and strong but he loved Everleigh as much as
anyone and was just as desperate to get her home.
His
jaw was hard as he mouthed the words, “We will bring her home,” and I
nodded at him, hoping like hell he was right.
We
all sat and held onto each other and prayed to any God that would listen to
make our family whole again. I couldn’t live without Everleigh in my life and I
prayed hard that I wouldn’t have to try.
We’d
been huddled together for a few minutes when I heard someone’s phone ring. We sat
up and glanced at each other for a split second before we all were scrambling
to get to our phones. I heard everyone saying that it wasn’t their phone as I
reached into my pocket. I pulled it out, pleading and hoping that it was mine.
When I focused more clearly and heard the ringtone, “Don’t Cry” by Guns ‘N
Roses, my heart filled with hope and adrenaline surged through my veins. It was
Everleigh’s ringtone. I swiped the screen and held the phone to my ear with a
shaking hand, both hopeful and terrified of what I would hear. “Everleigh?
Evie, baby, is that you?” I asked, my voice hoarse and weak. Please be okay,
baby…please be okay.
Chapter
4
Everleigh
The
entire time we were in the cab, I sobbed silently to myself. I thought of Ryder
lying on the floor of the club and I felt overwhelming regret because I never
got to tell him everything I wanted to. I’ll never get to kiss his lips again.
I’ll never feel his strong arms around me again. I’d never hear him laugh or
hear him tell me loves me again. I felt grief like I’d never felt