about her sonâs looks. He was pale, with bright blue eyes that could mesmerize you if you let yourself look into them too long. He was handsome, sexy and Iâd have invited him into my bed in a heartbeat if I thought heâd be interested. He reached out to stroke my cheek.
âNice to know, sweetheart.â
âDamn it, quit reading my mind.â I would have flushed if I wasnât about a quart low. I pulled a can of Bloody Merry out of my bag and popped it open. The older I get, the less often I have to feed. But smelling Derek . . . I took a swig, then sighed. âItâs not the same, you know.â
âDonât I just.â Freddy grabbed my can and took a deep swallow, then handed it back. âYou run out, just ask. Motherâs got about fifty cases stockpiled. âIn case of emergency.â She still doesnât trust the Internet.â
âWho does?â I sat on the bed and watched Freddy pace. It didnât take a mind reader to know he was still upset with Derek.
âMaybe you should hunt with him. Then you can control the situation.â I sipped again. I could feel my strength returning.
âHeâd love that, but been there, done that. You know?â
âYeah, I know.â It was so much easier to pretend you were normal when you didnât hunt. Sorry, but the thrill of being vampire can wear off, at least it did for me. Like, oh, two hundred years ago. About the time Blade and I split the first go round, actually.
Freddy was nodding. Of course heâd been reading my mind. I called him a name in there and he grinned.
âSorry. Bad habit. Forget hunting. Now about this shop of yours.â He quit smiling. âMaybe I shouldnât help you with it. Motherâs right. Go back to Blade. He still wants you and can well afford to support you.â
âNot up for discussion, Frederick. Go to bed, make up with Derek and leave me to my cannedââI wrinkled my noseââelixir.â
âStubborn wench.â He kissed my cheek then walked to the door. âIt is good to see you again. Rest well. Iâll see you in the evening. Your bathroomâs next door.â
âRest well yourself, Freddy, and thank you for having me here. Youâre a good friend.â
I sat on the bed and took another drink. They made a Bloody Merry lite but Iâd learned the hard way that no matter what I did to lose weight, I woke up the same old same old. The down side to our healing sleep.
âFriend? That guyâs nuts. Turninâ down a fine lookinâ woman like you.â Valdez bumped my hand with his nose and I buried my fingers in his fur.
âHe called you a damned dog.â
âWhich I am. Scratch my ears. Yeah, just like that.â
I sat there with Valdez close to me. He was warm, alive. As morning approached I felt more and more dead despite the rejuvenating effects of the Bloody Merry. I finished the drink and rummaged in my bag for a cotton nightgown. I was into comfort these days and looked about as sexy as a tree stump once I was ready for bed.
I found the bathroom and washed my face, studying my arms in the harsh light. CiCi was right, I looked stupid. Iâd shower when I got up and use one of the loofas next to the tub/shower combo to start ridding myself of my loathsome tan. I felt pale, I should look pale.
What had happened to my high spirits? My optimism? I staggered into the bedroom and turned off the light. The room was black, just the way I liked it. I donât usually dream when I sleep, but I have to admit that knowing Freddy and his lover were down the hall in each otherâs arms got me all nostalgic.
Okay, okay, jealous. I needed a new lover, someone who would worship me and do whatever I wanted. Not someone like Blade, who knew just how to make meâGod, yesâ come apart in bed, but treated me like a lowly woman the rest of the time we were together. The next affair I had,
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