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nerves of steel, and genius. I don’t
control it. When my shot came, I had ten minutes to impress the selection
committee. A blind audition, behind a screen, a single mistake and it’s over.
 A flawless performance and I could join one of the world’s most renowned
conservatories for music.”
    “And you gave a
flawless performance.”
    I flopped to my chair,
weak with misery. “I gave the best performance of my life. It’s an alchemy that
may never happen again. The audition is a sacred ritual. To win a seat anywhere
is a tremendous honor.”
    Daniel’s dark stare
reached across the room. “Why do you do it?”
    “I don’t know.” I
would’ve laughed hysterically if I weren’t so filled with hate for everything
in that moment. “Honestly, I don’t know why it’s important. With so much life
has to offer, I’m consumed by a single thought: Give me success or take this
away from me. I can’t live a half-sort-of-life of an unsuccessful musician. I
had my chance and I fucked it up.” I wiped my eyes. Literally, could not stop
crying. “Sorry. Never mind. You wouldn’t understand what it’s like to want
something and never quite get it.”
    Daniel poured a glass
of wine. “You’re not drinking?” He motioned to my empty glass.
    “I don’t drink for
heartbreak. I eat.” (The baby would at least emerge from my body sober. Though
God knows how we were going to manage after that. I wondered how I was going to
break the news to my parents they’ll have two more mouths to feed on their
artist incomes.)
    Daniel’s brow furrowed
as he cut into his filet mignon. “I don’t know what it’s like to want something
and not get it. You’re right about that. I’ve always got what I went after. I used to act on every impulse that popped into my head. Friends
said I was self-destructive. I didn’t think I was. It felt good to walk the
edge. It soothed an ache I had to test the limits of my mortality. It was
selfish. It hurt people who cared about me and drove some of those people away.
I regret some of it. Some of it I know was necessary to get me to where I am
now.”
    “Engaged to a beautiful, sweet girl, CEO of
the family business, wildly successful, handsome and popular, and all it took
was a few years of reckless behavior and a platinum
card.”
    I was bitter. I wasn’t up for a lecture on
how setbacks built character.
    “I’m not interested in that identity as
much as you think I am. I’m like you in that I have one over-riding thought
that drives me. The only thing that matters to me is protecting Joel. He’s my
brother. He’s all I really care about in this life. The rest of it can go to
hell.”
    “Why are you telling me this?”
    “To explain the difference between us is you
will give up and I won’t. I need to know what you wrote in your journal. About
the night Joel assaulted you.”
    I was completely taken aback. So that’s why
Daniel wanted my journal. He was determined to protect Joel at all costs. I
felt almost sorry for him because I understood the futility of running after
something we don’t control. We can only do our best and most of the time, our
best won’t be good enough.
    “Daniel, no matter how hard you try, you won’t
be able to save Joel. That’s your big fear, isn’t it? Joel wasn’t himself that
night. All I said about it was that he was different and it scared me. You have
to stop worrying that I’m going to destroy your stepbrother. I could tell you
why it is not in my best interests to do that but then I’d have to kill you.”
    I smiled.
    He smiled.
    And then we lapsed into silence as we jockeyed
for a new position, a new strategy to get what we wanted from the other. He had
the unfair advantage because I didn’t know what I wanted from Daniel Razor
anymore.
    “There something you need to understand,” he
began. “I didn’t like Alexandra. I didn’t like the way she treated Joel. The
way she spoke to him—she spoke to me the same way but I was angry