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I told you we could've stopped." Concern coming back.
    “No you didn't hurt me. As I was saying, I may have been a virgin." I wince as soon as I say it, and squeeze my eyes closed. I wait for it. He’s quiet for a minute, so I barely open one eye, just enough so I can see him and here it comes. Oh shit! It's gonna be bad, his nostrils are flaring, his face is red. He looks like one of those raging bulls.
    "The fuck? You were a virgin? Why the fuck didn't you tell me?" Letting go of my hands, he sits back on the bed and starts pulling at his hair.
    "I'm sorry I just...I didn't want to stop and I thought you would,” I say, trying to explain but I don't think he understands.
    "Jesus Christ, Jacey! Damn right, I would of stopped! Outta all the goddamn women I've ever been with, I never taken somebody's virginity, never wanted to."
    "Yeah, well, um, thanks for that. Didn't really need to know you’re a man-whore."
    "Well, shit! What do you fuckin' expect? We barely know each other! I thought we both had done this before," he says, as he pulls the condom off. "Goddamn it! Fuck! The condom broke. Fuck! What the hell is going on? Never had one break before! Fuck, I’ve never been with anybody else without one, I swear! Shit!” He's starting to freak out so I know I need to stay calm.
    "It's okay, Bear. I'm on the pill. You know, I've never been with anybody else either,” I tell him, hoping it will make the situation better. It's done and over now. There's no going back, so why freak out about it?
    "No, it's not fuckin' okay, Jacey! You were a fuckin' virgin. Why wouldn't you fuckin' tell me that? Fuck, Jacey. Why would you do this?" I don't think I’ve ever heard someone say the word “fuck” so much at one time. This is so not good.
    "Because Bear! You were the first guy that's ever turned my body on and I knew you wouldn't wanna do it if you knew,” I try to explain further, but he's not getting it.
    "Fuck no, I wouldn't have. Shit. Jacey, I fuckin' took it from you!”
    "Bear, I let you. It’s fine! You didn't even know."
    "It's not fine! Why would you wanna give it to a guy like me? I'm not the good guy, Jacey. That's who you should've given it to. How is that even possible for me to be the only one? You’re fuckin' beautiful. You could've had anybody, I promise you that."
    "I didn't want anybody else! Tonight, I wanted you."
    "Jacey, you don't even know me. Fuck, this is so fucked! This shouldn't have happened." He regrets it. Out of all the things I thought would happen, I didn't think he'd be sorry he was with me.
    "Then go! Just fucking get out!"
    "Jacey…”
    "No, get the fuck out of my house!” He grabs his clothes and leaves. As I lay here, under my covers, I hear my mother's voice in my head.
    "Jacey, you see those men over there? They are trash. Do you understand me? They will use you, then throw you away. You will marry money, don't ever make my mistakes."
    "But Daddy..."
    "No, Jacey. You do not ever bring your father up again. He never wanted either of us. Forget him.”
    Coming back to reality, I think about what happened. People may not understand how I would just let my virginity go like that. It's pretty simple really. I'm twenty-six and I don't trust people, nor do I let anyone close enough. I wasn't holding onto it for marriage or anything like that, it wasn't something I was cherishing. I just wanted to find the guy who could turn me on and hold my interest for more than five fucking minutes. Doesn't hurt that he is the sexiest man I've ever seen and I've been getting myself off to thoughts of a man like him for years.
    I fall asleep, dreaming about my father from when I was six years old.
    My momma opens the front door, hard. She looks around outside until she finds me. "Jacey get your ass in here."
    I stop playing and run inside. "What Momma?"
    "Don't ‘what’ me, you little shit! Tell your father good-bye, we are leaving."
    No, she's gonna take me. I don't want to go, so I start crying and