hugged a curve, marveling at the carâs ability to stick to the road. âShe wonât notice for a while, because I donât wear the pin every night.â
âGod, I hope it turns up.â She inhaled again, giddy from the odor. âWill Mom have a fit and fall in it?â
âNo. Sheâll look down, fight back the tears, purse her lips. Itâs worse than being fussed at. The guilt.â
âYou majored in guilt, all those years of Catholic school.â The corner of Harryâs mouth turned up.
âI know it! And I still canât rid myself of it. Makes me so mad. Like this car. I earned this car. I work hard. You know I do, and I love driving this thing, but every now and then I think of the suffering in the world and this wave of guilt washes over me. Well, Iâm not going to confession over it. Iâm not.â Her voice was determined.
âI think about suffering, too, but tell me, are we all supposed to suffer? Is that what equality means? Weâre all dragged down together?â Harry snuggled down in the seat, then sat up straighter. âAny one of those people suffering in the world, if they had the resources, would buy this car. Why spurn happiness? God gave you the chance. You took it.â
âTheology by Haristeen.â Joan smiled, since she could always count on a good discussion with her friend.
âLogic, not theology. Thereâs precious little happiness in this world. Grab what you can. I donât mean you take away someone elseâs, but grab what comes to you.â
âBut thatâs it, isnât it? If I buy this car Iâm polluting the atmosphere. I could send this money to, oh, Uganda and help someone.â
âFirst of all, Joan, thatâs bullshit. Industry pollutes more than cars. And even if you drove a hybrid, you might not emit as many hydrocarbons, because youâd use less gas and oil, but it would still contribute to global warming. Exhaust is hot regardless of the fuel. You have to drive. When have you ever seen a bus stop out in the country? Right?â
âRight.â
âOkay. Furthermore, if you send money to Uganda it will wind up in some corrupt officialâs pocket. You donât even have to send it to Uganda; think of the millions that disappeared earmarked for the victims of Katrina. Give to charity you can monitor with your own two eyes.â
âYou got that right.â She nodded.
âEvery time money changes hands, some sticks. The more people between your dollar and the recipient, the less reaches the recipient. Charity begins at home.â
Joan laughed, a big smile crossing her radiant face. âIâm sooo glad I bought this car.â
âAnd in British racing green. Back when auto racing began, those great races over countryside and through cities, each country had its color. Pretty cool, really. The Germans were silver or white or both. France was blue. Italy was red. But British racing green is the coolest.â
âStill have your 1978 Ford F-150?â
âMy baby.â Harry giggled. âHey, you know I planted those Petit Manseng grapes, donât you?â Harry had hopped to another subject, but Joan was used to it.
âYou sent me pictures when you laid out the rows.â
âWell, I wonât get anythingâI mean a good yieldâuntil the third year, but the vines are up and leafy. This is the only time, really, that Fair and I could get away. Did I tell you I snuck out early this morning?â
âHarry, how much coffee have you had?â Joan shook her head in amusement.
âAm I speedy?â
âYou and the car.â
âSorry. Too much caffeine, but I have a good reason. Well, sort of a good reason.â
âIâm waiting.â
âCouldnât sleep. I snuck out, took Fairâs truck, and drove over to the fairgrounds. Thought Iâd sneak in and see if the watchman was really awake. He was.