accustom you to helplessness,â she said.
âI do not understand how the apartment could have been entered,â I said. âThe doors and windows were locked.â
âThere are devices,â said Paula. âI have read of them.â
âI sometimes have the sense that I am being watched,â I said.
âGorean slavers,â said Paula, âoften scout âslave fruitâ, before it is picked.â
âIf there were such,â I said, âdoubtless.â
âThey choose carefully,â she said. âThey select for intelligence, beauty, and passion.â
âI am highly intelligent,â I said, âand obviously extremely beautiful. But I do not care for men.â
âSlave fires,â she said, âmay be lit in the coldest of bellies, turning them helplessly needful, beggingly needful.â
I feared this might be true.
Had I not dreamed of such need, of such helplessness? Could I be turned into such a needful, helpless thing?
Surely not!
Yet had I not longed for this?
âHow helpless then,â she said, âwould a woman be!â
âDo not speak so,â I begged.
âWhat could she be then,â she said, âbut a manâs slave, the slave of men.â
âI would not permit it,â I said. âAnd who could respond to the men we know?â
âYour wishes in the matter need not be considered,â she said. âAnd all men may not be such as those with whom we are disappointingly familiar. I am sure, dear Phyllis, your libido, rendered helpless, dominated and mastered, will respond overwhelmingly to the lust of masters.â
âI understand little, if anything, of this,â I said.
âI think they are considering you, Phyllis,â she said, âfor a Gorean Âcollar.â
âDo not be absurd,â I said, uneasily.
âYou might be fetching,â she said, âslave clad, if clad, collared, and owned.â
âI am a free woman,â I said, angrily.
âI suspect so,â said Paula, âbut who knows what the future might hold.â
âWhat do you know of these things?â I asked.
âI read, I think, I wonder,â said Paula. âI am familiar with the Gorean world, as I suspect you are not.â
âI have heard of it,â I said, âa little.â
âI have lived in the books,â said Paula. âThey have spoken to me. I have found myself barefoot in those green fields, I have glimpsed far horizons from the bow of a swift galley, knelt trembling before a master.â
âIn your imagination!â I said.
âYes, alas, only so,â she said.
âI did not know you were like this,â I said.
âI have often wondered,â she said, âif there is a Counter-Earth, traversing its orbit, plying its silent way about our star, a world with its own gods and beasts, its own seasons and tides, its own strifes and wars.â
âAbsurd,â I said.
âIf there was such a world,â she said, âmight it not hint its presence in a hundred ways, content even to be perceived as fiction?â
âAbsurd!â I said, angrily.
âStrange beasts, unwilling to be seen, might prowl in surprising precincts,â she said. âReality might wear many concealments.â
âIf Gor is real,â I said, âlet it show itself, openly!â
âIt, or its custodians, may not care to do so,â she said. âWhat would be the value or purpose of such a disclosure? How would it benefit either world? Would it not shatter comfortable visions, disrupt cultures, shake civilizations, alarm and unsettle populations, produce social, economic, and intellectual chaos? No, it is better for Gor to conceal itself, to the extent it can; it is better for it to maintain its privacy, its reticence. It is better for all that way.â
I looked away, angrily.
âBesides,â she said, âperhaps it is not