decide what to do.
There was no longer any point in denying she was deeply attracted to Tom â she still balked at the phrase âin loveâ. It had all been so totally unexpected, overwhelming her before she was even aware it was happening. In the fourteen years since Neilâs death, sheâd had no interest whatever in men, gently rebuffing any venturing too close. She was financially independent, thank God â even comfortably off since her motherâs recent death â and despite having to give up teaching, the other love of her life, to nurse her during her last illness, her life was still full and interesting. She saw quite a bit of Daniel and Jenny, and despite her basic reserve, had made several friends since sheâd come to Marsborough, mainly through the societies sheâd joined. She did not, she told herself, need a man in her life, let alone one who was already married and whose daughters she had met.
She put her hands to her head. God, what a mess! Several times sheâd decided not to see Tom again, had gone so far as to turn down one or two of his proposed meetings. What always undermined her, though, was the knowledge that he was profoundly unhappy. Was that her fault? Heâd intimated that his marriage hadnât been right for years, but she suspected it was only when the two of them so obviously enjoyed each otherâs company that heâd appreciated quite how much it had deteriorated. In which case, she was at least partially responsible.
She knew, too, how much he was dreading his retirement at the end of the year, when he would be forced into his wifeâs company. Catherine had a consuming, if ambivalent, desire to meet Avril Parish; she couldnât conceive of a woman not appreciating Tom as a husband.
Tom! He filled her mind with disconcerting suddenness, bringing a sharp, painful stab of desire that literally took her breath away. She sat down abruptly, her heart hammering. That hadnât happened before. It was over fourteen years since that particular urgency had assailed her. Holding her mind in abeyance, she forced herself to breath slowly and deeply until, gradually, the heat left her body.
No longer nearly so sure of herself, she gathered together the coffee cups and carried them through to the kitchen.
Rona, too, had found the visit vaguely unsatisfactory. It had reinforced her liking for Catherine, but left her with no inkling of the current position between her and her father. The manifesto was a find, though, she told herself more positively; surely Latymer would have no objection to her quoting from it? What politician was averse to a little extra publicity? He could even make capital out of it: âAll my life, Iâve had political ambitions!â No need to explain it had been a school exercise.
She garaged the car and walked back to Lightbourne Avenue, Gus trotting happily at her side. In the hall, she at once lifted the phone and dialled Max.
âYou havenât by any chance got James Latymer there with you?â she asked, when he answered.
âNo, I havenât. Why?â
âIâd like to meet him.â
âYouâve not shown any interest before. Why now? Thinking of becoming a parliamentary candidate?â
âHardly. No, Iâve been to see Catherine Bishop â you know, the scrapbook woman I mentioned last night â and she produced a manifesto that heâd written for a mock election when he was thirteen.â
âWhat was his platform? Save the Whales?â
âIâve not had time to read it, but at a guess itâs more altruistic than heâd go in for now.â
âSuch cynicism!â
âShe also wondered if her arts appreciation society could approach you.â
âNo way.â
âThatâs what I told her. But to come back to Latymer, whatâs the position, exactly? Is he still sitting for you?â
âHeâs done a stint and at the