figure it out himself and with every layer that he peeled off, it became harder for him to understand her. But with the time they had spent together he was slowly beginning to understand that in the core of it all Kim loved her family so much so that she had given up her own future a way. Sometimes it’s harder to forgive yourself for what you cannot do for yourself and that is a heavy burden to carry. He was glad he could be there to help Kim lift that burden.
So he sat there, reading the menu and observing Kim from the corner of his eye as she fidgeted in the chair. He tried his best not to smile.
“Are you ready to place your order?” a waiter interrupted their moment of silence.
“Yes, I’ll have a smoked salmon salad with crab dressing.”
“I’ll have the same.”
“All right then, two smoked salmon salads with crab dressing. Anything to drink?”
“No. Water is good.”
“Why won’t you ask me?” Kim asked in a hushed voice.
“I did.”
“Well, then ask again, because I didn’t answer.”
“You want to be treated like a grownup. I didn’t think I needed to ask you the same question again. You’d tell me when you were ready.”
“Humph! How long are you going to throw that in my face?” She sat back in her chair and crossed her arms across her chest.
“Kim,” Dave finally dropped the act as he knew with experience that the humor he felt was clearly lost on Kim and if he had learned anything about Kim it was that a good moment could turn into a mindless argument in no time. “What is bothering you?” he placed his hand on the table, palms up, indicating he wanted hers in his hand.
Kim relented, but she really wanted to tell Dave about her conversation with Beth. She wanted to ask him that if Beth wasn’t taking the news about their relationship well, how was she to break it to her parents?
She slipped her hands into his and Dave squeezed them gently.
“What is it?” he looked at her as she fiddled with the cutlery. “What is bothering you Kim? Is everything okay at home?”
“Yes, at least for now. But I am not sure for how long it’ll be okay.”
“What do you mean? Is Richard back in the hospital?”
“No, Dad is at home. He is… well, he is fine at home.”
“Then?”
“Beth called.”
“And she was not very happy to know about you and me,” said Dave unexpectedly. “And that is making you wonder how Richard and Judith will take the news?”
Kim shot him a look; it annoyed her that Dave could read her so easily. It annoyed her that she didn’t get to explain herself. But what was she complaining about? That Dave understood her so well? That he cared enough to understand her and her situations even before she had to? Real mature of you, Kim. She huffed, knowing she was just being difficult.
“Well, yes,” she said. “I am worried how they will react.”
“They will react the way any parent would. And you have to allow that. You cannot control how others feel. All you can do is give them enough information about the situation and enough time to accept it.” When Kim didn’t look up or say anything Dave continued. “What were you expecting? That they would be thrilled to see their daughter in a relationship with a man much older that her? You can’t be that naïve, Kim. You knew they would never accept this easily and willingly.”
“Yes, I didn’t. So what do you suppose we do since you have everything figured out so well?”
The sharp tone clearly indicated Kim’s annoyance but she also knew that Dave was only helping.
“Sorry! I am sorry, I don’t mean to take this out on you.” She placed both her hands in Dave’s and squeezed them hard. “I… I guess I didn’t think this far ahead. I didn’t think when or how to tell my parents. I was… am just enjoying our time together. I don’t know what to tell others anything about us. What do I tell people when I myself don’t know what is happening?”
CHAPTER 6
The flight attendant’s
Laurice Elehwany Molinari