again?”
“I don’t know yet.”
“I apologize, Jessica,” he said suddenly. “You probably have a boyfriend. I’m sorry I was being so pushy.”
“Actually, I don’t.” Jessica didn’t know why she felt compelled to confess that she was single.
“Oh.” He smiled, then his eyebrows drew together. “If you’re not interested, just tell me and I’ll leave you alone.”
Jessica was most definitely interested, but she was also scared. In college she’d had two boyfriends whom she had fallen hard for, only to have them end it when she wanted to get more serious. Since then she’d tried to protect her heart by avoiding relationships all together.
But maybe, she thought, I don’t want to let the opportunity pass me by this time. I’m out of college now, and I’m in a new phase of my life. Maybe it’s time I started taking a chance.“It’s not that,” she said, surprised at herself for admitting it out loud. “It’s just that I’m leaving tomorrow and I want to spend the evening with my aunt and uncle.”
Kyle nodded, obviously approving of her priorities. “Would you mind exchanging numbers with me? Maybe you can let me know when you’ll be in town again.”
Jessica stared at the ceiling as she remembered that first meeting and wondered if she would have been better off if she had followed her first instinct and never gotten involved. She closed her eyes and tried to blank out her mind, hoping that would help her fall asleep. Finally she began drifting off.
“I’m sure he’ll be here any minute,” Jessica said as the baker set the pieces of cake in front of her, along with a large catalog of wedding cakes.
“I’m so sorry, ma’am, but I have another appointment. Please take your time in choosing the one that you would like for your wedding.”
Jessica nodded, irritated with Kyle that he was so late for their appointment, and wasn’t answering his cell phone. Taking a bite of the first piece, she frowned. Though she liked the way it tasted, she didn’t feel right about making the choice on her own. This was for their wedding. Kyle should be involved.
She tried to drag out the time, but finally had to make a decision without Kyle.
“Have you decided, ma’am?” the baker asked when he came to check on her.
“Yes. I’d like the chocolate with the raspberry filling.”
“Very good. And the design?”
Jessica turned to the page in the catalog where she’d found a design she liked. “This one.”
“Ahh. Beautiful.”
As she walked out to her car, she tried Kyle’s cell phone again, but again she just got his voice mail. “Kyle, I hope you like the cake I chose for our wedding.” She sighed. “Where are you?”
As the day went on and she didn’t hear from him, her irritation turned to worry. He’d never gone so long without responding to her calls.
When he called that evening she was so relieved to hear from him that she forgot her annoyance that he’d missed the appointment at the bakery. “Kyle, where are you? Are you okay?”
“Hey, Jess.”
He sounded really down, which was out of character, and Jessica felt herself go on high alert. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m not sure how to tell you this.”
Alarm bells pounded in her head. “What is it? Are you hurt? Did something happen?”
“I’m not hurt, but I, well, I had a realization today.”
“What do you mean?”
“Jess, I just can’t do it.”
Though he hadn’t said exactly what he couldn’t do, she had a pretty good idea what he was talking about, and she felt the blood drain from her face. “Can’t do what?”
He was silent for a moment. “Marry you.”
Her world began collapsing in on her. “I don’t understand,” she whispered.
“I’m just not ready.”
A huge knot had formed in her throat, and she found she couldn’t speak.
Kyle sighed. “I’m sorry.”
Jessica swallowed convulsively, trying to force the knot out of the way. When she finally found her voice,
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