asked with a grin.
Her chin came up a notch. âWhy is that amusing?â
âHe sounds like a . . . pansy.â
âI assure you he isnât. His poems are beautiful. Will you quit grinning at me? They are beautiful, and itâs apparent to me that heâs a very intelligent man. You may read his letters if you donât believe me. I have all three of them tucked inside one of my satchels. Shall I fetch them for you?â
âI donât want to read his letters. You still havenât explained why youâre so determined to marry a stranger.â
âI tried marrying someone I knew, and look how that turned out.â
âYou decided on this course of action after you got jilted, didnât you?â
âLetâs just say that it was the last disappointment I was going to suffer.â
âIs that so?â he remarked, wondering how she was going to prevent further disappointments.
She seemed to read his thoughts. âI stayed up all that night . . . my wedding night,â she said.
âCrying?â he asked.
âNo, I didnât cry. I spent the entire night thinking about my circumstances, and I finally came up with a plan that I believe will change everything. Iâve always been forthright and honest. Well, no more, thank you very much.â
âHow come youâre being honest with me?â
She shrugged. âI shouldnât be, I suppose. Still, I wonât ever see you again after todayâat least I donât think I willâso it doesnât matter if you know Iâm a fraud. No one else will.â
âTrying to be something you arenât will only make things worse.â
She didnât agree. âBeing me didnât do me a lick of good, and once I figured that out, I decided to reinvent myself. I was sick and tired of working hard and being so boringly practical all the time.â
âYouâre overreacting, thatâs all.â And crazy, he silently added. âYour pride was wounded, but youâll get over it.â
His cavalier attitude irritated her. âI know exactly what Iâm doing, and pride doesnât have anything to do with my decision. Working hard hasnât gotten me anywhere. Shall I give you an example?â
She didnât wait for his answer, but plunged ahead. âRandolph was studying to become a banker. He was just beginning his last year at the university when we became officially engaged. His studies were difficult for him, and because of his grades, he was worried heâd be asked to leave. I told him that if he wouldnât accept every social invitation that came to him, he would have time for his studies, but he wouldnât listen to me. He asked me to help him with his research, and because I was such a ninny and wanted to please him, I ended up writing several lengthy papers for him. He was supposed to use the papers as his study guide, but I later found out he put his name on the top of the first page and handed them in to his professors. It was a dishonest thing to do, of course, and do you know what his punishment was? He took honors for his last yearâs work and was hired by one of the most prestigious banks in Boston. He started out making an impressive salary, and that was when my sister became interested in him. Ironic, isnât it? If I hadnât helped him, he wouldnât have gotten such a fine position, and my sister would have left him alone.
âIâve learned from my mistakes though, which is why Mr. OâToole and I are going to do well together. Randolph broke all the promises he made to me, and I wonât let Mr. OâToole ever break his word.â
âHow are you going to stop him?â
She ignored the question. âHe might not be as rich as Randolph is, but almost, and he lives out here, in this beautiful, wild, untamed land, and that makes him just as appealing to me. I really hated living in the