you, if youâre in danger? We have to call him now. I need to get off the phone. Weââ
âNo!â
Ben looked up for a second. The word he hated. The word Carrie had thought back to a thousand times, wishing she could erase it and restring her memories with yeses. Give him anything he wanted if she just had the chance. There was no malice in his eyes, just slight recognition. Then he went back to slurping the last dregs of chocolate, running the straw around the bottom of the glass, searching for more.
âListen to him, John,â she cried. âCan you hear him slurping?â She brought the phone closer to Ben. âDo you want a quick photo? Should we FaceTime? Iââ
âCarrie, stop! I have to call Nolan!â
âJohn, no! You have to see him first,â she said. âPromise me youâll come home first.â
âWhy, honey? Why?â
âBecause heâs exactly the same,â she whispered.
âWell, of course he is.â
âNo, I mean, heâs not any older.â
âWhat?â
âHeâs not three. Heâs still two.â
âHoney, thatâs just a trick of the imagination. You just donât remember how biââ
âI remember! I remember everything!â
âOrâ¦heâs beenâ¦confined, maybe. Underfed.â
His voice didnât catch when he said those words. How could that be? she thought. How could that possibly be? The thought of it, the imagesâthey tore at her. But sheâd lifted Benâs shirt. Sheâd seen. He wasnât scrawny, ill-cared for. He was simply too small.
âNo. He hasnât aged, John. Itâs like heâs beenâ¦preserved.â
â Preserved? â
She heard so much in Johnâs intonation, in his pause. His mind, his logical mind, the gears almost musically obvious when they were turning.
She took the phone into the living room.
âYes, John,â she whispered. âLike heâs notâ¦really aliââ
âCarrie, listen to me. We should call Dr. Kenney right away, right now, then Nolan beforeââ
âNo! No!â Half screaming, ramping up. She knew how to get his attention, how to make him listen. His fear of her breakdown was greater than his need to be right, to do right.
âHow about Libby then? Iâll call Libby andââ
âIf you call anyone, I swear to you, John, Iââ
âOkay, okay,â he said. âLock the doors.â
John excused himself from his clients, saying he had an emergency at home. Oh, the looks on their faces. How many emergencies could one man have before they stopped feeling sorry for him and started wondering about him? No, these were good people. One of the women had patted his arm almost tenderly as he left.
As John raced home, he went through all the options: Whether his son was really in his house. Whether the crime was about to be solved. Whether his wife was losing her mind. And, yes, guiltily, whether the promotion to regional manager that he was up for would be affected by any of these possibilities. He was competitive, heâd cop to that, but he ordinarily wouldnât be so jaded and cold. It was only because the other top salesperson in the area, Lara, had told Justin at the convention in Atlantic City last month that John had gotten the âpity vote.â Sheâd said this half drunk at the hotel bar, and John, who only had an occasional drink, had filed the information away.
At home, Carrieâs thought process was narrower. It wasnât until she got off the phone that it hit her: John knew Libbyâs number? How on earth did he even know her fellow volunteerâs last name?
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Ben had been kidnapped on July 12. Carrie had stayed inside her house for the rest of July and the entire month of August. Sheâd started seeing Dr. Kenney in early September, and later that month, with Johnâs and