hi-how-are-ya exchange.
No, the residents of Lonesome knew who
your parents were, where you’d been born.
From first word and first tooth right on up
to and including first date and firstborn,
Lonesome didn’t keep secrets. Didn’t need
to. Lonesome’s families were born here,
died here, and pretty much did all their
living either on the surrounding ranches or
on Lonesome’s handful of streets.
Which didn’t leave a whole lot of room
for a girl like her. An outsider.
The label the town’s gossips had put on
her was trouble .
That label wasn’t wrong.
She’d come out to Lonesome as part of a
program to get kids out of inner-city Los
Angeles and away from the tough
neighborhoods where they’d grown up.
Her foster parents had shoveled her onto
the bus that promised to drive her five
hundred miles north, away from city
conveniences—and city noise, pollution,
heat, and general gang-banging violence—
to Northern California and ranch country.
Matter of fact, she hadn’t wanted to leave
Los Angeles. Why would she? But she’d
gotten onto the bus because a ten-year-old
girl didn’t have too many choices, and she
was smart enough to realize, even then, that
there were worse destinies than a summer
spent in Lonesome.
Some of the kids riding the bus couldn’t
wait for the doors to open up and spit them
out into rural nowhere. Those kids talked
about horseback riding and swimming and
county fairs, but those were just words as
far as she was concerned. She knew all
about words. Those other kids, the ones
who’d been there before and were going
back for seconds or thirds, acted like
they’d found themselves some new
families out there in the sticks. Whatever
family she’d been born with hadn’t
bothered to stick around for her. She’d
wound up in the foster-care system
because that was what Los Angeles County
did with kids who couldn’t produce a
parent. A borrowed roof still beat sleeping
in the streets or the back of a car.
Lonesome wasn’t going to give her a new
family. She knew that.
But when she’d gotten off that bus, she’d
met Auntie Dee. By the end of the summer,
she’d known she wasn’t ever getting back
onto the bus. She’d stayed. The good
residents of Lonesome might not have been
sure about her, but Auntie Dee had been.
She’d had eight good years with Auntie
Dee before she’d finally packed her bags
and left. This time, for college and a
degree in architecture. She hadn’t been
back
much—and that was intentional,
because she’d been avoiding Cabe
Dawson even though he, of course, had no
clue how she felt—but she’d convinced
Auntie Dee to make the bus ride down to
LA, and she’d shown her the city. She
should have come back. She shouldn’t
have let Cabe’s rejection hurt her so badly.
Of course, truth was, Cabe probably
would have looked her square in the eye,
given her a happy meet-and-greet, and
offered her a cold longneck. She was a
friend of his brothers, and Cabe Dawson
valued his family. It was just one of the
many fine qualities he had. He thought her
attempt to kiss him was just a game, just
another attempt to push his buttons hard.
All of which made her want to plant her
brand-new cowboy boot in the middle of
his equally fine ass and shove.
Cabe had welcomed her to Lonesome,
invited her to hang out with his brothers.
Hell, she’d been one of the boys. Sort of.
She’d
spent
summer
after
summer
following the Dawson brothers around
from one piece of mischief to the next,
Cabe dogging their heels disapprovingly
the whole time. He’d never looked at her
and seen a girl. Or a potential girlfriend.
And by the time they’d been halfway
through high school, she’d wanted him to
look at her. She’d made just one move.
Once. One attempt to kiss Cabe Dawson
and make him see her as someone more
than his brothers’ friend.
He’d been standing by that truck of his
that day, looking
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