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I'd expected that God would send me my first good college friends in the from of girls, but who am I to question God? And it's not like these two guys and I are going to get romantically involved. I know there's not the slightest chance of that. How do I know? Well, Stephen just isn't my type. I mean, he's a sweet guy in a young John Candy kind of way, but I can't imagine the two of us ever getting involved. And although I think Bryce is nice looking enough, he has a girlfriend already, and Ihave absolutely no interest anyway. And so, for now, I'm just glad to have two new friends. I told them about my English class being on the same night as the fellowship group.
    “That's too bad,” said Stephen. “But sometimes we get together for other things. We'll have to keep you posted about what's going on.”
    “We have an early morning prayer group on Fridays,” offered Bryce. “It's just guys right now, but I heard a couple girls want to join us. You'd be welcome. We pray for the entire campus.”
    “That sounds great. Maybe I could get some prayer for my roommate.” Suddenly I felt I'd stepped over a line.
    “What's wrong?” asked Stephen.
    “Oh, nothing really,” I said quickly. “But she's not saved. I'm sure she could use our prayers.”
    “You're rooming with a nonbeliever?” Bryce's eyes got wide. “Do you think that's wise?”
    “Well, I didn't really have much control over it.” I tried to sound light. “And who knows, maybe God will do a miracle. It wouldn't be the first time, you know.”
    Stephen laughed. “Yep, you sound just the way Josh used to describe you as.”
    “And how's that?” I eyed him curiously.
    “Oh, he used to call you a spiritual firecracker.”
    We all laughed.
    “Well, I'm not so sure about that. But I'll take it as a compliment.”
    So I hung out with Stephen and Bryce for the rest ofthe day and even went to the evening church service with them. And, believe me, it was the best day I've had since coming to the university. It really gives me hope!
    THANKS, GOD, FOR BRINGING THESE TWO FRIENDS MY WAY. THANKS FOR GNING ME SUCH A FUN DAY. PLEASE HELP ME TO BE A BETTER LIGHT FOR LIZ AND ANYONE ELSE I MEET. AMEN.

FOUR
Thursday, September 26 (out in the cold!)
    Grrrr! I am so totally furious that I can barely write! But maybe if I vent a little I'll manage to calm down some. So take a deep breath, Caitlin. Easy does it, girl. Remember God is in control, right?
    Okay, just when I thought things were starting to smooth out, it feels like someone jerked the rug out from under me again. Liz had been making herself pretty scarce this week, and even when she was around, it hadn't been quite as toxic as before. I was actually starting to think perhaps I could handle this whole thing after all. As it turns out, the reason she was in better spirits was because she and Jordan were getting back together. Apparently he was sorry for “cheating on her” with Rachel and actually brought by some flowers and a poem in hopes that they might patch things up. I felt a little unsure about accepting these items on Liz'sbehalf–worried that she might get mad at me–but what could I do? It was actually a pretty nice bouquet, and judging by Liz's reaction, the poem must've hit the spot. So you'd think everything should be just peachy, right? Wrong!
    At around seven o'clock Liz informs me that Jordan's on his way over so they can talk this whole thing over tonight, and would I mind making myself scarce for an hour or two? Well, I'm not too excited about getting thrown out of my own room, but I keep these feelings to myself as I toss my stuff together and trek off (in the rain!) to go study in the library. But once I'm there, I wonder why I didn't suggest they go somewhere else to talk it over. Why am I turning into such a little wimp lately? But I know the answer is simple enough: Liz is so overbearing that I'm afraid to stand up to her. And I know my chances of having peace are greater when she is