of our everyday lives. The mothers. The grandmothers. The aunties. The friends.
“They're the ones in the trenches. The ones trying to give our daughters a sense of self-worth and well-being in the face of a society constantly telling them they’re not enough.
“There is no greater office than that of a parent. A nurturer. A caretaker. And there is no greater gift than that of a child. So I'd like to take this opportunity to extend my thanks to all those women who do the hard work on a daily basis. The ones who stayed and took responsibility, sometimes with zero help. The ones who continue to stay, every morning, and every night, even when it gets hard. Those women are the true heroes. Those women deserve all the admiration and honor we have to give."
The playback stopped and Makayla stared at the computer screen, trying to make sense of what she’d just heard and seen.
Hurt? What hurt was Robin referring to? And the part about not being able to put one foot in front of the other? Did any of that have to do with Makayla?
She’d always majored on the fact her mother left her. Beyond assuming it was for selfish reasons, she never thought about why. Did the events Robin referred to in her speech have anything to do with it?
Makayla walked home with a greater sense of confusion than when she’d left that morning. She hated it. For the past five years, she’d been nothing if not sure. Sure about her revenge and sure about her right to it. Now, she was anything but.
At least it was only Monday. That meant she had nearly a full week before she'd see Robin again. She’d need at least that long to figure out what she was going to do.
Chapter 6
M akayla paced the small , rundown lobby of her apartment building, peeking out the glass double doors every few moments. It was a good thing there wasn’t a neighborhood watch group. After a few minutes of observing her strange behavior, somebody would’ve called the cops. She figured she looked like a sketchy participant in a drug deal, but at least she lived where people were used to sketchy and tended to ignore it.
Criminal activity would have been a lot less nerve-wracking than what she was about to do. She’d come to a decision: Today she’d tell Robin the truth.
Somewhere behind her, an apartment door slammed shut and Makayla jumped. Her heart pounded so hard, it made her slightly nauseous. She swallowed the excess saliva that’d filled her mouth and leaned against the wall of metal mailbox doors.
Get it together get it together get it together…
She’d forgotten how terrible it felt to be sick with apprehension. After she’d gone out on her own, she’d taught herself to react to the world around her like an ordinary person would. Though it took some time and practice, she got to where sudden movement didn’t give her an uncontrollable urge to run. Someone standing near her no longer made her as tense and uncomfortable as it once had. But all her training seemed to have left her.
And her body wasn’t the only thing reacting outside her control.
Her mind was buzzing with a dozen different thoughts. How should she tell her? Just blurt it out? Ease her way in? When should she tell her? Before church? After church?
Before church was a possibility. After church might be better. Maybe it’d give Makayla a chance to settle down.
Should she tell her in the car? At the church? At her apartment?
Definite “no” for the church. There were too many people. And if that was a “no,” Makayla’s apartment was an “absolutely not.” The last thing she wanted was for Robin to see where she lived. The outside of the building was bad enough, but the inside? Makayla was sure she’d die of humiliation before she ever got the words out.
And what, exactly, would those words be?
Makayla pushed away from the wall, looked through the glass doors again and returned to pacing.
She didn’t have a clue how she’d do it, she only knew she would. After spending every