believe she might be happier growing up as a young woman than the son she thinks I need her to be. Iâm more guilty than anyone else because Iâve depended on her so much.â She turned to Jared. âAnd I need someone who can understand that Jared is a wonderful boy even though he canât do the things most boys can.â
âThatâs what Rose did for my family,â George said. âWe wouldnât be here without her.â
âYes, you would,â Rose contradicted. âProbably still fighting, wearing dirty clothes, and choking down Tylerâs cooking, but youâd still be here.â
Sarah wondered if it would ever be possible for a man to look at her the way George looked at Rose. She could cook, clean, wash, mend, and sew. She could work in the fields, put up food for the winter, dress meat, and make sausage. She could dance, sing a little, and carry on a conversation if it didnât wander too far from ordinary life. She believed she was capable of satisfying a manâs physical appetites. Surely no man could expect more.
âGo on,â George encouraged. âI didnât mean to interrupt you.â
Sarah jerked her thoughts away from the impossible. âWhen I asked if there were any other men I might interview, I was told you employed the most capable and dependable men in the area. So thatâs why Iâm here, to ask if you will help me convince your most capable and dependable man to marry me.â
âWhy should I do that?â George asked.
âYou have no reason at all,â Sarah said.
âYes, we do,â Rose said. âYou need help, and we can give it to you.â
âHow?â George asked. âWe donât have anyone who fits her requirements.â
âWe have the perfect man.â Rose flashed a very satisfied smile and announced, âSalty. If you choose him, nothing will go wrong.â
Sarah hoped her face didnât show her surprise. Sheâd found him attractive, but she didnât want a man she found appealing. That wasnât supposed to be part of the bargain. She didnât want any emotional attachment while they were marriedâ¦or any emotional entanglement to deal with when she divorced him. Divorce wasnât common, and divorced women were often looked upon with a jaundiced eye, but Sarah was willing to take that risk rather than find herself and her children bound to a second husband like her first.
âI had someone older in mind, someone whoâll be willing to commit to at least five years,â Sarah said. âSalty is young enough to want to marry and start his own family.â
âSaltyâs twenty-seven,â George said. âThereâs only one older on the ranch. All the men who work for me were soldiers during the war.â
She didnât want a soldier, either. The two sheâd hired had been bitter, cynical, and given to drinking up their small wages. Worse than that, theyâd had no understanding of Jaredâs handicap. They acted like he was faking. Their scoffing had driven him to a dangerous attempt to saddle a horse. Heâd fallen in the corral, unable to get up. It was a miracle he hadnât been stepped on or kicked. Sheâd fired both men immediately, but the real damage had been done to Jaredâs self-esteem. How could he respect himself as a man when he couldnât saddle or ride a horse, something his sister did every day?
âI admit I barely know Salty,â Sarah said, âbut I donât think heâs the kind of man to be interested in taking such a job.â
âWhy not?â Rose asked.
What to say? No one knew she didnât want to be married again. Sheâd been forced to marry Roger whoâd mistreated her, turned his back on his son, then deserted his family. The physical side of their marriage had been a painful and humiliating experience she never wanted to repeat. The men in her life, from
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