gesture as if to encompass his responsibilities at the manor ââbut now Iâm saddled with debts and commitments, and anyone who takes me on takes all that on, as well.â
I can see what he means, but suddenly, in the midst of that thought, a bright revelation shatters the gloom.
Oh, God, even though heâs expressing his shortcomings and his wariness of relationships, the fact that heâs actually mentioned a relationshipâmarriage evenâmust mean that he feels more for me, and sees me as more than a temporary employee and a casual spanking playmate.
Mustnât it?
âLook, please, let meâ¦let me touch youâ¦or maybe we can even fuck? I wonât expect more than just that. All itâll be is a bit of pleasure with no commitments. Umâ¦just friendship with a little bit of extra, really, nothing more.â
Itâs out before Iâve really thought about it. But thinking about it, I know I do want more, despite what I say.
Even though itâs possibly the stupidest thing Iâve done in my life, even crazier than agreeing to be spanked by my temporary boss, Iâve only gone and fallen head over heels in love with the marquess, havenât I?
And heâs right, thereâs no future in it, is there? None at allâ¦Soon Iâll be leaving for the Caribbean, to take up my chance-of-a-lifetime job.
He looks at me, and his dark eyes are still sad, but strangely yearning. Itâs as if heâs just read my thoughts, and feels the same bittersweet emotions that I do.
âYouâre a wonderful girl, Rose.â He touches my face, the same fingers that punished me now a tender, caressing curve. âYouâre far too wonderful for me. If I take more from you, Iâll just want more than that. And moreâ¦and moreâ¦and thatâs not fair of me.â
I could weep and scream. He does bloody well care!
Acting on impulse, I turn my face into his gentle hand and kiss his palm. He groans and mutters, âNo!â
But I know Iâve got him. His whole body shakes finely, and beneath me, his cock jerks and seems to harden even more, if that were possible.
âI shouldnâtâ¦I shouldnâtâ¦â
âItâs all right. Itâll be âno strings,ââ I whisper against his palm, then inscribe a little pattern, a promise, with my tongue.
âOh, hell,â he almost snarls, and then heâs kissing me, tilting me back on his lap and going deep with tongue and lipsâ¦and heart?
I embrace him, writhing on his knee again, the discomfort of my spanked bottom forgotten. Wrapping my arms around him, I try to silently say all the things that are too difficult and irrational to say.
Likeâ¦
To be with him just a little while, Iâll pay any price, do things his way and never ask for more.
Likeâ¦
Iâm prepared to take my chances on his lack of prospects and commitments.
Likeâ¦
Who needs a fucking job in the Caribbean, after all?
This last one shocks me, but just as I think it, the marquess deepens the kiss even further. His arms slide around me, holding me tight, and yet with delicacy, as if Iâm precious to him.
And then, somehow, weâre on the rug, and heâs lying over me, great and dark, like a shadow thatâs so paradoxical itâs also light. The light of revelationâ¦
His hands rove over my body, exploring with reverence this time, and great emotion. And the touch is a thousand times more sexy than when we played. With a gasp, he straightens up momentarily and rips open his shirt, sending buttons flying in his impatience. Then he embraces me again, skin to skin.
His body is hot, feverish and moist, with a fine sheen of sweat that seems to conduct electricity between us. I moan, loving the communion, almost feeling that this might even be as good as sex in some mysterious way. But then my cunt flutters, reminding me I want more.
Still kissing me, the