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the center of my chest.
     
    I thought tonight would be our night. I thought it would be the night that Matt and I take our fling to the next level.
     
    I was wrong.
     
    Anna-Maria can’t bring her eyes to mine as she slips by me and shrivels out of the room.
     
    The hypocrite.
     
    It hasn’t even been a week yet since she tried to shame me for allowing Matt to seduce me. Now, I find her naked and panting underneath him.
     
    I bring my attention back to Matt. He’s now at the bar in the corner of the room pouring himself a drink. He takes one big gulp, finishing off the contents of his glass. He looks over at me. “Anyway, I won’t be needing your services tonight.” His words cut me deep. I feel so cheap. I’m not sure that he realizes how I’m interpreting what he just said to me. He tosses a handful of peanuts into his mouth before he begins slowly buttoning his shirt. “You can go.”
     
    I don’t say a word.
     
    I can’t.
     
    I back out of the room and get myself to the elevator as quickly as my body will take me.
     

Chapter 10
     
    “I wanna come hooommmeeee,” I wail into the phone as I sit in my bed, clutching my duvet to my chest.
     
    “Shhhh shhh shhh,” my best friend, Kimberly, says in her most soothing voice. “Calm down, Hailey Bear. Calm down. It’ll be okay.”
     
    I blot my eyes with a handful of tissues. “No, it won’t,” I cry helplessly. “I gave my – my body to him. I let him see my – my body – And he doesn’t give a damn about me.” I can barely string a sentence together between my sniffles. “And now – I have to see him at work everyday – knowing that I gave him my body and he doesn’t want me – I want to come home .”
     
    “Hailey – listen to me. You made a mistake. That’s all it was. That guy is a jerk. It’s his loss. You’re a fantastic, beautiful girl.” Kimberly is trying her best to console me but I feel so broken right now that I can’t even process what she’s saying.
     
    “Do you think it’s because I’m fat, Kimmy? Is that why he doesn’t like me?”
     
    I hear her sigh into the phone. We’ve had this particular conversation a million times.
     
    Is it because I’m fat? Is that why Ricky Freeman didn’t ask me to the prom?
     
    Is it because I’m fat? I that why that guy in my Contract Law class never asked me out?
     
    Is it because I’m fat?
     
    “No, Hailey. It’s not because you’re fat. You’re not fat. It’s because he’s a loser. There’s nothing you can do about that, except maybe take his name to the lord in prayer.”
     
    I know she didn’t say it to be funny, but that comment gets me to laugh. She chuckles a bit too although she was dead serious about me getting down on my knees and praying that god save Matt’s dark, ugly soul from eternal damnation.
     
    My sobbing calms a bit. “I feel like my heart is broken into a million tiny little pieces,” I say weakly.
     
    “You’re stronger than you realize, Hailey Bear. Remember that. Always remember that.”
     
     
     
     
     

Chapter 11
     
    I’ve decided that I won’t be having sex with Matt anymore.
     
    Obviously.
     
    But it’s still hard to stop thinking about him. And it’s impossible to not feel hurt.
     
    That’s why I decided to work today, on Thanksgiving Day. I need to keep busy in order to keep myself from obsessing over how stupid I was to give my body to a man who doesn’t respect me. I spend the day at my cubicle reviewing recent tech startup jurisprudence in an attempt to distract myself.
     
    By 9:45, I’m exhausted and starving. I slip into my coat and grab my purse. It’s time to go home.
     
    When I step off the elevator in the lobby, Jackson is alone at the security desk. My heels click loudly as I make my way to the front door.
     
    Jackson looks up from the book that he’s reading. A wide smile spreads across his face. “Hey Cowgirl!” he says with his usual charm.
     
    “Hey Tough Guy,” I say, slowing my