head.
He winced with impatience, then lifted one of the wooden chairs, spun it around, and sat down on it next to me, his arms folded along the chairâs back. âOkay. What is it?â
She looked from William to me. âThe two of you think youâre very clever, donât you?â
William looked at me, I looked at him. He grinned and said to her, âWell, Audrey, I guess we do.â
âYou two have had things your way for a long time now. Daddyâs little darlings. Daddyâs little angels. Well, I know a thing or two about you, about both of you, that Daddy doesnât know.â
Mrs. Mortimer cleared her throat. âI really ought to go now, Audrey. Iâve got so muchââ
âYou stay there, Esther. I want you to see what a wonderful pair of brats Iâve got here.â
William was still smiling, confident he could handle whatever she was about to offer.
But it was to me that she turned first. âDo you think I havenât seen you sneaking over to that awful womanâs house? Do you think I donât know what youâre doing?â From her housecoat pocket she pulled a pack of playing cards and slapped it onto the table. She reached in and pulled out another pack, slapped that beside the first. âHow do you think your fatherâs going to like it when he hears that youâve been gambling with a murderer ?â
I was so surprised at how wrong she had got it that I burst out laughing. âGambling? Thatâs crazy!â
At my laughter, my stepmotherâs face had closed like a fist. âCrazy? You think itâs crazy? Whatâre the cards for, missy? Whatâre you doing when you sneak over there to see that woman?â
I shook my head, petulant. âI donât sneak over there.â
âNo?â Her upper lip curled with scorn. âThen why havenât you told your father about it? Why the big secret?â
Unerringly, she had located a pocket of guilt, and prodded it. I switched from defense to attack: âYou took those out of my dresser. You had no rightââ
âDonât you tell me about my rights, missy. This is my house and itâs my responsibility to watch you two.â She leaned forward. âThey say she smokes too. Does she give you cigarettes?â
âNo!â
âAnd they say sheâs not right, sheâs not normal. Does she touch you? Do you let her touch you?â
My anger had become confusion. â What ?â
Her face was twisted. âDo you take your clothes off, do youââ
Angry, William said, âStop it, Audrey, goddammit. Leave her alone.â
âOh no,â she said, rounding on him, pointing a finger at his face. âOh no you donât. You donât tell me what to do. You think I donât know about you ? You think I havenât seen you and that cheap little Grady slut? Grabbing and groping at each other out on the lawn like animals ?â
William flushed, his face turning bright red. I did not know (and do not, to this day) whether it was fury or embarrassment.
My stepmotherâs eyes were narrow slits. âAre you giving it to her yet? Are you sticking it in her? You must be, or you wouldnât need these .â From her other pocket she pulled a small cardboard package and flipped it onto the table. Although I did not know it then, what the package held, of course, was prophylactics.
William said, âGod damn you, Audrey.â
She laughedâa hard, dry, bitter cackle. âCurse me. Go ahead, you curse me. Your father will hear about that too. Heâll hear about all this. His little angels. His little darlings. Heâs going to learn what youâre really like.â
Through clenched teeth, William said, âYouâre a rotten bitch.â
âDonât you dare ,â she said, standing up and moving around the table, toward him, âdonât you dare call me that, you sneaky