especially interested in hearing about the book she was reading, or her thoughts on formal gardens. But Edwina merely looked at her blankly.
Finally exasperated, Josie discreetly suggested that Edwina consider Colin as a suitor. This, unaccountably, made Edwina laugh.
âIvorwood, courting? I canât imagine it. Can you see him telling a woman sheâs the light of his life and he must have her?â
Edwina had a point: that fatal reserve of Colinâs. Well, fatal if you wanted him to be effusive. Unfortunately, Edwina had the idea that a suitor must treat her like a princess.
âWell, perhaps not those words. But he might say something nice.â
âIf a manâs not going to say those words or something like them to me, then heâs not the man for me. But I think we all know marriage is not in my future anyway.â
Josie frowned. âYou canât just give up on marriage because Mr. Perriwell behaved badly.â
Edwinaâs eyes darkened at the mention of the wealthy suitor their father had produced six years ago. Mr. Perriwell and Edwina had seemed to really like each other, and it had looked as though an engagement were imminent. But then their father had gotten sick with the illness that killed him, and Mr. Perriwell had stopped visiting. They heard later heâd married.
âI donât want to talk about this,â Edwina said, a husky note in her voice.
âButâyou have to. I meanââJosie lowered her voiceââat Jasmine House means dancing attendance on Mama while she refuses to leave the divan. And I know there will be a nice portion for each of us, but everything else will belong to Lawrence. After Mamaâ¦do you really mean just to live here with him and be a spinster aunt?â
Edwina shrugged dispiritedly. âI donât like to think too far into the future.â
Edwina was in other ways such a practical personâshe kept all the household accounts, for goodnessâ sakeâthat her depressed view of her future made no sense.
âAnyway, life is unpredictable,â she continued. âWho says I wonât perish before Mama?â
Josie rolled her eyes. âNow youâre just being dramatic. But you canât give up on finding a husband before youâve even begun. And wanting a fantasy man to sweep you off your feet is just another way of ensuring you donât risk your heart with a real man.â
âJosie,â Edwina said fiercely, âthereâs no point. I am nice to look at, but thatâs it. Even Papa told me Iâd have to rely on my beauty, that I didnât have anything else to recommend me.â
Josie remembered how their father had sometimes said to Edwina, Youâve got no spirit, gel, not like your sister. Edwina had been prone to tears as a girl, and afraid of dogs and horses, which had annoyed their fatherâa man whoâd valued boldness so much that heâd given his daughters mannish names. But heâd said so many ridiculous things, Josie had early on stopped paying attentionâwhy hadnât Edwina?
âIt was wrong of him to say thatâsurely you see that? Papa said all sorts of wrong things.â
A shadow flitted across Edwinaâs face, making her look surprisingly vulnerable. âWell, I certainly didnât have enough charms to keep Mr. Perriwellâs attention.â
âThatâs ancient history. Forget about it.â Josie grabbed her hand and squeezed it encouragingly. âYou do like Colin, donât you?â
âYes, of course I do,â Edwina said with a sigh. âHeâs a lovely man. Smart and witty, and quite nice to look at.â
So Edwina could see his virtues.
âBut itâs ridiculous, the idea of him courting me,â she continued.
Only because youâre not ready to embrace something good for yourself , Josie thought. But if only Colin might court Edwina in the right way, who knew what