bewildered, staring at the door through which heâd exited stage left. As the seconds ticked by, I realized he wasnât coming back. And he hadnât even asked for my number.
Then the waitress brought a basketful of chicken wings. I scrunched my nose at them and looked at the dollar bills on the table. Not even enough to cover two drinks plus the food.
Great.
I was about to go find Farrah, so we could ponder together all the dire scenarios that might possibly have pulled away such a promising guy, when I was startled by a familiarâand unnecessarily loudâvoice.
âHey, sexy! What are you doing, sitting here all alone? Buy ya a drink?â
Good God, it was Jeremy. He stood in front of me with his spiky hair, shining eyes, and a boyishly goofy grin. He held two brimming shot glasses, one in each hand.
âJeremy! Hi. . . . Uh, what are youââ
He sat down in the seat vacated by Wes and slid a glass toward me, the original intended recipient of the drink apparently forgotten. âCome on, Ms. Milanni. A toast!â
I sniffed the caramel-colored liquid and smelled hot sweetness. Butterscotch schnapps maybe? I looked at Jeremy and pursed my lips into a reluctant smile. What the heck.
He winked at me as we raised our glasses. âTo Thursday nights,â he said.
Indeed. I downed the shot and felt the hot bite dissolve into a warmth that slid from my throat to my toes. I had licked my lips and opened my mouth to make some conversation when a crazy-hopping, drum-heavy dance tune filled the club and Jeremy reached for my hands.
âCome on, boss! Letâs dance!â
And so that was how I found myselfâthree or more dance songs and at least one slow song laterâin a shadowy corner of the club with the Untouchable . . . our arms entwined, our mouths inches apart. We were so close, I could practically taste the cigarettes on his breath, which was actually pretty repulsive. Yet, at the same time, I couldnât help being drawn to the animal heat radiating from his whole body.
The shots we kept downing between dances might have had something to do with this predicament.
I was certainly feeling warm and fuzzy. Even so, I was also aware that he seemed even farther along than me toward complete, sloppy drunkenness. Yet another reason I should extricate myself from this situation at once , I told myself sternly.
âWanna go for a walk?â he whispered.
âSure.â
He put his arm around my waist and led me toward the door. I let myself be led, doing my best to ignore the devil and the angel duking it out on my shoulders.
What are you doing?
Shut up. Itâs just a walk!
The pavement was wet and shimmery under the streetlamps. It must have just stopped raining, and Iâd had no idea it even started. For some reason, this bothered me, the fact that it had rained without me knowing about it. We had gone a few steps in the direction of Fieldstone Park when the phone in my purse rang.
âHold on,â I said to Jeremy. The rain-scented air and the absence of noise were clearing my head a bit, and I was glad for the excuse to pause.
I didnât recognize the number. âHello?â
âHello, Ms. Milanni?â It was a womanâs voice, sounding strained.
Jeremy looked impatient and started to shift from foot to foot.
âYes,â I said. âWhoâs this?â
âThis is Darlene Callahan, Eleanor Mostriakâs daughter.â
âI gotta piss,â mouthed Jeremy, turning to head back to the bar.
I furrowed my eyebrows, wondering why Eleanorâs daughter was calling me at this hour of the night.
âIâm sorry to call you so late, but I felt it was important to let you know.â Darlene paused, and I felt a sinking sensation in the pit of my stomach. âM-mother passed away this evening. She had a heart attack.â
CHAPTER 4
I awoke with morning-after remorse like I hadnât felt in a very long