emotional,â Jamie replied. âAda is very high-strung. When she thinks about it, sheâll realize she made a mistake. She tripped, thatâs all.â
âI . . . I felt weird up there,â I confessed. âI was standing behind Ada at the top of the stairs. And the glasses on her tray suddenly started to shine in my eyes. I felt dizzy.â
âDizzy?â
âYes. I thought I might black out. But . . . youâve got to believe me. I didnât push her. I couldnât.â
âOf course not,â Jamie said in a soft, soothing voice. âOf course not.â
So why was she staring at me so suspiciously?
10
The next couple of days I kept to myself. I was eager to find out what kind of greeting Iâd get from everyone my first day at Shadyside High. But the school was closed for two days because of a water-main break.
Jamie hung out with Lewis and some of her other friends. And I heard her sneaking out after midnight to see her friends at the bar they all go to on Fear Street.
But I didnât feel like tagging along. Well, I guess I was a little tempted. I wanted to see Nate again. I kept thinking about him without even realizing it.
I wondered if he believed I pushed Ada down the stairs. I wondered if heâd be glad to see me, or if heâd try to avoid me.
But I didnât leave the house. I e-mailedsome friends from my old school. And I called my dad. Told him everything was just great. (As if he cared.) And I tried to read ahead in some of the school assignments.
The night before the high school was to open again, Jamie appeared in my room. âWhatâs up?â
âNot much,â I said. âReading this Shakespeare play for English.â I held up the book.
Jamie straightened some papers on my desk. âYou nervous about tomorrow?â
âKinda,â I replied. âIâm sure your friends all think Iâm some kind of monster because Iâm a Fear and they think I pushed Ada down the stairs.â
âNo way,â Jamie said, shaking her head. âNo one is even talking about that anymore.â
A lie. But a nice lie.
I couldnât get over the change in Jamie. How she was trying so hard to make me feel comfortable and everything.
Then she mentioned our cousin Cindy.
Cindy died in the hospital last August. She had been sick for a long time, but it was horrible and shocking. She was just a year older than Jamie and me.
âI saw Cindy a week before she died,â Jamie said, settling on the edge of my bed. âDid you see her?â
âNo. I was too far away,â I replied, putting down my book. âBut I talked to her on the phone. She . . . she said she was getting stronger. I knew she was just being brave.â
I sighed. âShe died three days later. When I heard, I cried and cried. She was such a cool person.â
Jamieâs eyes narrowed. She had a cold expression on her face, an expression Iâd never seen before. âLife can really suck,â she whispered.
We stared at each other for a long moment. My ears started to ring. I waited for Jamie to break the silence. When she didnât, I said, âYou know, Cindy was a Fear too.â
A strange smile spread over Jamieâs lips. âI know.â She picked at the strings around the hole on the knee of her jeans. âDana, did Cindy say anything to you about sending a signal?â
I narrowed my eyes at her. âA signal? No.â
Jamie tugged at the knee of her jeans. âCindy promised me sheâd send a signal,â she said, her voice just above a whisper.
It took me a while to understand. âYou mean a signal from the grave?â
Jamie nodded. âShe promised. She said sheâd send me a sign from the other side. Iâve been watching for it ever since . . . ever since she died.â
I leaned forward in my chair. âAnd?â
âNothing yet. But I keep