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at his
    black
    patent
    shoes. He looks like he’s standing in a
    path
    of
    light ain’t that some ironic shit.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â The ADA he don’t even glance my
    way
    no one even
    turns
    in my direction do I even
    need
    to be here? That ADA he says he’s gonna let me off with
    probation.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Again.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â He don’t say so but I
    know it’s on account of
    Pop
    being a cop. It’s always on account of
    Pop
    being a cop.
    But this time this
    time
    this time
    Pop
    says,
    No.
    We stare at him. He’s standing all
    righteous
    arms crossed next to the
    red
    white
    and blue. He says,
    No.
    He says,
    Send him to
    jail. Maybe it’ll teach him a
    lesson.
    He
    says,
    Doubtful but
    maybe.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â That’s it then. My lawyer he don’t do shit in my defense he works for
    Pop
    not me I guess.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Whatever.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â My mom she’ll never say one
    word
    against what
    Pop
    wants god forbid.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â They bring me in front of the
    judge
    all rise
    he seals my
    fate and badabing we’re
    done.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â After that they
    cuff
    me.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Again.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â They’re taking me back to
    lockup.
    Who gives a rat’s ass
    anyway.
    They ain’t doing
    nothing new to me.
    I already got myself
    all
    locked
    up
    in my head.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â My hands
    they’re pressed together
    I can
    feel
    my
    pulse
    beat.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Mom’s
    crying.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Now she’s
    crying.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â I made her
    cry.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â They’re taking me
    away for four
    months.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Good for them.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Pop
    calls my name but I don’t
    answer. Then he
    stops me he grabs at my arm he
    pinches
    hard
    into me but I don’t flinch.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Pop
    looks
    looks
    looks at me
    he looks me in the eyes.
    What do you know he
    actually
    looks
    at me
    no shit.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â I make myself
    look
    back it’s the first time in I don’t know
    how
    long
    I look straight into the
    ice
    floating in them
    sockets.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â The sun gleams on his badge. The beam reflects
    it bounces
    off the badge
    it hits me in my pupil. I’m half-blinded but still I look I
    look
    I
    look into him
    into
    that
    frost some call eyes I won’t look away
    fuck
    him.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Pop
    pinches into me.
    He pinches into
    his
    son
    that they’re taking
    away for four
    months.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â In his best cop voice
    Pop
    tells me
    he tells his son
    that’s going away for four months getting caged up like an animal
    thanks to him
    he says to
    me
    spattering specks of his
    spit
    on my cheeks my nose my lips they
    seep in they
    melt
    in my mouth
    he says,
    People like you,
    you
    make
    me
    sick.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â They’re taking me away now
    really.
    Mom steps up
    she puts her arms
    â€˜round my neck
    she pulls me
    down
    against
    her
    she gives me a
    hug.
    Feels nice even though I had to bash some asswipe’s
    skull
    in to get it.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Then
    she lets go.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Her tears are on my neck
    drip
    dripping
    down.
    Don’t cry for me
    Ma
    save those tears they’re
    awful
    hard
    to come by.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â I’m looking at her
    â€˜stead of where I’m
    headed.
    I stumble
    I’d
    fall
    â€˜cept for those two court officers
    holding
    me up
    on either side
    lucky
    me.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Yeah.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Incarcerated at seventeen.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Sweet.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â What’s next? My life’s
    jam
    packed
    with possibility.
    Â Â Â Â Â Â What loving father what
    devoted
    dad
    wouldn’t be delighted to see me
    dating his
    dear
    darling
    daughter?
    Â Â Â Â Â Â Doll. If she