the best solution to your problem.â
âIâll drive the car and make my living!â she said belligerently. She knew she wasnât facing reality, and she almost added that she could support herself equally well if not better by becoming a seamstress. However, since he knew nothing of that particular talent, she thought it best to keep it to herself for the time being.
He shrugged. âDrive the car, by all means,â he said, turning to leave, âbut, just remember, no self-respecting businessman is going to permit himself to be driven through the streets of Atlanta by a woman.â He gave her a rueful smile. âIâll be waiting to hear from you, Claire. When your situation is desperate enough, come and see me.â
âIâll never do that!â she said to his retreating back.
It was all bravado. She didnât know how badly she might end up, or what measures she might be forced to take. But how dare he make her such an offer of marriageâso cold and calculating that she got chills down her back just thinking of it! He couldnât believe sheâd accept such a proposalâwithout even the pretense of warmth or affection! He could believe it because he cared so much for Diane. She didnât have to hear him say that to know the truth of it. He loved the woman more than anything, so to save her the vicious gossip of society dames, he would sacrifice himself on the altar of marriage to another woman. It wasrather noble and heroic, except that Claire would also be making a sacrifice to marry a man who didnât love her. She knew how he felt about Diane. That wouldnât change. She would be a fool to link her life to his.
But what if she could make him love her? asked a tiny voice deep inside her mind. What if by living with her, sharing things with her, being around her constantly, he could learn to love her? There might even be a child, she thought with a scarlet blush, and surely he would feel something for the mother of his son?
She put the thought away as quickly as she entertained it. He might be able to make love to her, as men were known to be capable of it with any woman. But he would be thinking of Diane, wanting Diane. How could she bear his kisses and his embraces when she knew he wanted someone else, even if the someone else didnât want him back?
The answer was, of course, that she couldnât. She had to pick up the pieces of her shattered life and become independent. There would surely be a way. If her uncleâs beloved motorcar wasnât the answer she would think of something else. Then let Mr. High-and-Mighty Hawthorn come calling with his infamous proposals!
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F OR TWO WEEKS AFTER the funeral Claire only went through the motions of living. Kenny came once and offered to do anything she needed done, including trimming the hedges. She didnât take him up on his offer, because she didnât want to raise his hopes. He had a mild crush on her, but she had no love for him, only friendship.
She missed her uncle terribly. Money was already a problem. Sheâd had to let Gertie and Harry go, a blow to all three of them, and not done without a tearful parting and promises to keep in touch. They easily found work, because locally they were known as hard workers. That, at least, took some of the burden from her conscience. The house was sold; Mr. Calverson had sent word that he had a buyer who wanted to move in within the month.
Claire would receive two hundred dollars as her part of the sale, but that would quickly be gone, because the funeral expenses had to be paid out of it.
She had tried to find clientele for her motorcar enterprise, but as John Hawthorn had predicted, businessmen didnât flock to her door to become clients. In fact, she was brushed off unceremoniously. She did back the motorcar out of the drive and run it around the block, dressed in the long white driving coat and goggles and cap her uncle had always