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for him.”
                  “He must be out of his mind expecting you to wait around for five years.”
                  “He said if he’s on good behaviour, he might be out much sooner than that. He promised me he’d turn his life around.”
                  “And you believe him?”
                  “With his track record for lying, you think I’m stupid enough to believe him? Even after everything, he refuses to admit he was selling. So of course I don’t believe him, but sometimes prison changes people, so I have to think positively.”
                  I watched her carefully, trying to grasp her emotions for him after everything. “Still,” I muttered. “That’s a long ass wait, Al, change or no change.”
                  She cringed at the name I called her, and she didn’t yet know I did it because of the reaction she gave me every time.
                  “You might move on by then,” I added.
                  “To be honest, I don’t care if I do,” she replied.
                  “No?”
                  “Relationships are hard work. The thought of starting over again from scratch with someone else tires me out. I need to focus on this,” she pointed to her belly, “and my school work. Not some guy in prison who hurt me. Not trying to sound harsh, but Ryker messed up things in a way that can’t be fixed with an apology.”
                  I nodded. Smart girl. Well, not the getting pregnant part, but everything else. I respected her opinion, was quite impressed she wasn’t like those girls defending their guys when they absolutely fucked up.
                  “You had a good fight, by the way,” she then said, finally looking up at me. Her blue eyes brightened a bit and she smiled. “I didn’t think you’d win it.”
                  I smirked. “You and everyone else.”
                  “Big cut?”
                  Remembering the wad of cash in my pocket, I nodded heartily. “Oh, yeah.”
                  My income had me barely making it by, but with a fight here and there, the injection of cash was welcome and always brought my debts back down to zero. I’d never lost a fight, and people had no right to have a negative opinion of me the way they did tonight, but then again they’d never seen me up against a guy double my size.
                  And I was already a big guy. So that said something.
                  She took the plate into the kitchen and rinsed it in the sink. Then she came back and grabbed her backpack. “Where do you want me to crash?”
                  I resisted rolling my eyes. “Ryker’s room is still there and ready, Al.”
                  Another cringe. I resisted chuckling.
                  “Okay, well, I appreciate this very much, Heath. I’ll um… try and be out of your way. I don’t want to be a stress to you –”
                  “You’re not going to be a stress,” I interrupted solemnly. “We’re going to get through this. We’ll figure it out, alright?”
                  She nodded and blinked back tears. “Yeah.”
                  We stood in silence for a few moments; that trademark awkwardness between us grew by the second.
                  “Okay, well good night.” She whipped around and left the room, disappearing seconds later into Ryker’s.
                  I looked at my untouched food, not feeling one shred of hunger, and settled it down on the kitchen counter.
                  “There’s still food left in the kitchen,” I called out to her on my way down the hall.
                  “Okay,” she called back.
                  Standing in the bathroom, I slowly peeled off the tape around