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then starts pacing back and forth.
    “ It’s fine. I told her it wouldn’t be a problem.”
    “ Stop saying its fine! It’s not fine. Laney had no business talking to you like that. I’m sorry. I will make sure it won’t happen again.”
    “ It’s…” He is glaring at me almost daring me to say its fine. “Okay.” I say instead.
    There is an awkward silence that falls between us after that. I don’t know how to really end the conversation and it appears neither does he. After a long break he finally looks at me.
    “ Do you know what I am most sorry about?”
    “ What?” I know I shouldn’t ask him. I know the answer will hurt, the look in his eyes told me I am not equipped to deal with this confession but I’m too curious.
    “ I’m most sorry that you lost your riding career. I know how much competing meant to you.”
    His words hit me. I can feel my emotions splintering inside me. I don’t want to cry in front of him so I don’t respond and just nod instead. I know he understands my pride won’t let me fall apart in front of him and he doesn’t push the conversation further. With the rawness now hanging in the air he turns and walks away into the darkness. I stand there staring after him for a long while rerunning the conversation in my head. I know I’m not over him and I know that I probably never will be. There has been too much that has happened between us for me to just forget. I may move on but I will never forget. He will forever be the one that haunts me in my dreams.

CHAPTER 5
     
    School started and things fell into a steady rhythm. It’s now the end of September and so far I enjoy all my classes. I totally love my real estate law class that I have on Tuesday and Thursday afternoons. I even have a philosophy class with Tanner, which is fun. We of course sit next to each other and he keeps me laughing the entire time. I am a little worried my grade is going to suffer because I am too distracted to concentrate on the professor. I guess that means I’ll just have to do extra work outside of class. I’m madly trying to finish my homework for real estate law when Millie comes into my room. I know she is going to harass me about going on the social cruise in Couer d’Alene this weekend.
    “ Hey P.”
    “ Hey Mills what’s up?”
    “ So have you thought more about the cruise?”
“I don’t have a date Mills. I’m not going to go.”
    “ Well what if I told you I found you a date?”
    “ Uh… what?”
    “ So I was telling Brooks that I was bummed that you aren’t going because you didn’t have a date and he suggested Holden go with you. He asked him and Holden said he would love to. So ta da you have a date!”
    “ Oh my God Millie I’m going to kill you. I am not going. I didn’t order shirts or anything.” Sororities have a weird obsession to mark every social occasion with themed shirts. It’s odd but I enjoy having all the extra cute shirts.
    “ Well, that’s the best news. As social chair, I ordered extra just in case something like this would happen. So you really have no excuse.” She looks at me with a total gotcha grin.
    “ FINE.” I growl.
    “ Great! I will go call Brooks and tell him to tell Holden. This is going to be fun P, just you wait and see.” For some odd reason I didn’t believe Mills. I wasn’t nervous about spending time with Holden. Since he is our neighbor I run into him lots and he is always easy to chat with. It was something else that was causing my uneasiness.

    I was surprisingly having an amazing time on the cruise, even though Millie strategically left out that we were sharing a boat with Chi Sigma Rho. I did have to admit I enjoyed having Tanner on the cruise to entertain us with stories of his drunken date. But for as much fun Tanner was providing it didn’t stop me from feeling apprehensive every time someone came to the upper deck. I had seen Cutter and Laney when I first got on board but since then I have successfully avoided