liked me and loved this ranch. I figured we had as good a chance of making a marriage work as people who were passionately in love.â She sighed again. âIsnât hindsight wonderful?â
He leaned back in his chair and looked at her for a long time. âYouâre a tonic,â he said abruptly. âYouâre astringent and sometimes you sting, but I like being around you.â
âThanks. I think,â she added.
âOh, itâs a compliment,â he murmured. âI wouldnât offer you anything except the truth.â
âThat really is a compliment.â
âGlad you noticed.â
âWhat happened to the drunk cowboy?â she asked.
âLukeâs wife is getting him into a halfway house,â he mused. âA real crusader, that lady. She is a bleeding heart.â
âShe likes lost causes,â she countered. âIâve heard a lot about her, and I like what Iâve heard. If I can get this ranch back on its feet, Iâd like to help her.â
âAnother latent crusader,â he teased.
âA lot of people need saving, and there arenât a lot of reformers around,â she pointed out.
âTrue enough.â
âThanks for sending that other man over to keep a lookout. Heâs very nice. Did you know that he likes to do needlepoint?â she asked matter-of-factly.
He nodded. âNels does some exhibition-quality handwork. Nobody teases him about it, either. At least, not since he knocked Sid Turpen into the water trough.â
She chuckled. âHe looked like that sort of man. I knit,â she said. âNot very well, but it gives me something to do when Iâm by myself.â
âYouâre always by yourself,â he said quietly. âWhy donât you come home with me one or two evenings a week and we can watch television after Iâve finished with the books. I could come and fetch you.â
Her heart jumped. She didnât need telling that heâd never made that invitation to anyone else. He was like a wounded wolf in his lair most of the time. âWouldnât I be in the way?â she asked.
He shook his head. âIâm alone, too. You and the baby would be good company before and after heâs born. You donât have a husband anymore. I donât have a family,â he said bluntly. âIâd like to help you through the next few months. No strings,â he added firmly. âAnd absolutely no ulterior motives. Just friendship.â
She was touched. He made her feel welcome, warm and safe. She knew that a lot of people were intimidated by him, and that he was very standoffish. It was a huge compliment he was paying her. âThanks,â she said genuinely. âIâll take you up on that.â
He sipped his coffee and put the cup down. âIt might be good for both of us to spend less time alone with the past.â
âIs that what you do, too, thinking about how it might have been, ifâ¦â She let the word trail away.
âIf,â he agreed, nodding. âIf Iâd smelled the smoke sooner, if Iâd gone to bed earlier, if Iâd realized that Lopez might send someone after me even from prisonâ¦and so forth.â
âI kept thinking, what if I hadnât got pregnant sosoon after I married,â she confessed. âBut Iâm not sorry I did, really,â she added with a tiny smile. âI like it.â
He searched her dark eyes for longer than he wanted to and dragged his attention away. All at once, he glanced at his watch and grimaced. âGood Lord, I almost forgot! Iâve got a meeting at the bank this morning that I canât missârefinancing a loan so that I can replace my combine.â He got to his feet. âNo other problems except for drunk cowboys in your bed?â he asked whimsically.
She glared at him. âDonât look at me, I didnât put him there!â
His eyes roamed