John was an apprentice mercer.â
âWhoâs John Lilburne?â asked Lucy.
Susan raised herself on an elbow. âYou never heard of John Lilburne?â
âNo.â
âEh! Well. He used to write pamphlets against the king, but now theyâre against Parliament because, he says, Parliamentâs become more tyrannical than the king was. Heâs been locked up in the Tower this past year.â
âOh!â
âThe pamphlets Mr Browne sells are his, some of âem. I canât believe you never heard of him!â
âLeicestershireâs a long way from London.â Lucy could feel all those miles in the ache of her muscles and the heaviness of her eyelids. She had never seen any pamphlet at all, let alone one so dangerous that it got its author locked up in the Tower. She was too tired to wonder what it was like.
She was just about to fall asleep when Susan said, âThey said you came here because you were ravished by soldiers during the war, and your sweetheart wouldnât have spoiled goods afterwards, and your mother died of grief. They said you were pining away.â
Lucy was abruptly fully awake again. âMy mother had been ill a long time. Grief ended her illness but didnât cause it. And I wasnât pining: I was angry.â
âAye?â said Susan with sympathetic interest. âIâd be angry, too. If a woman jilted a man because he lost a leg in the war, everyone would call her a false jade, but if a man jilts a woman because sheâs lost her maidenhead, the other men just nod. Half of them think the woman mustâve played the harlot to have suffered so in the first place, and the other half say they wouldnât want spoiled goods either.â
âI think Ned fancied he could marry a bigger dowry,â Lucy said bitterly. âWith so many men dead, those that are left fetch more at market, and my father couldnât supply even what heâd promised before. The men who took my maidenhead also took all our cattle. You say you were told about this, about me?â
âOh, never fear!â Susan said, immediately understanding the concern. âNobody in the neighbourhood knows. Your uncle told me , but to the neighbours he gave out that youâve come to stay in London because times are hard for your family. He says thatâs true as well, anyway.â
âAye,â agreed Lucy. âAll our wealth was in those cattle.â
She had milked those cows every morning and evening; she had given them the old country names â Daisy, Clover, Sweetbriar â and theyâd come trustingly to her call. Sometimes she still dreamed of them. The thought that theyâd almost certainly been slaughtered for meat still caused a surge of pain and anger, even two years later. It was worse, somehow, than the anger she felt on her own behalf: you werenât supposed to mourn cows.
Her father had been slow to replace the cows. Heâd promised Ned Bartram a dowry and heâd tried to keep his promise â until Ned declared that he wouldnât take spoiled goods. Then the dowry-money was spent on cattle. Lucy had said nothing but sheâd noted the assumption: no one would wed her now.
Still, now she was in London, where nobody knew of her disgrace. She allowed herself a small sigh of relief. One of the things sheâd most longed to escape was the way everybody knew what had happened to her. She could feel them looking at her when she walked past: âThere goes Lucy Wentnor, who was ravished by three soldiers when she went to milk the cows. Her father found her lying on the barn floor, naked and covered in blood.â She didnât know which was worse, the pity or the revulsion.
Now she was in London, she thought again, already half asleep. It might be a hellish place but at least it was a new one.
Two
Lucy woke before dawn, at first disturbed just because she was in an unfamiliar bed. Then the