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my mom brought home from a club. I was fifteen years old. He was older than me by eight years and about seven years younger than my mom. Of course, the guy wanted a piece of my mom. When she passed out on him, he found me watching television in the living room.
    At first, I wanted to kick him out like I did most of the guys she brought home. After hanging out with him, I began to find him attractive. He was a pre-med student in Florida for Spring Break. To my surprise, I was flirting with him. Since he came to my mom’s apartment looking to score, he jumped on the opportunity.
    After making out on the couch for a bit, he wanted to do more. I let him do things to me that I never even thought I wanted to do. I let him finger me. And he coached me on how to jerk him off. The experience left me uneasy. Two hours later, he was gone and I was alone.
    I didn’t have anyone to talk to about it. My mom didn’t wake up until the next day and didn’t remember that she brought someone home. My fifteen year-old brain rummaged through her purse to see if she had his number. Stupid me. I didn’t realize until about a year later that I meant absolutely nothing to a spring breaker.
    When I was seventeen, I met a boy on the beach who was visiting his grandparents for the summer. Whenever I wasn’t taking care of my mom or she was out, we would hang out together.
    Austin was a safe guy. He was respectful, nice, and gentle. I liked him because he was everything my life was not. At that time, my life was chaotic. Austin offered me innocence and comfort. Austin gave me the opportunity to escape for a while. With Austin, I never had to worry about being taken advantage of.
    That summer, we explored our bodies together out of sheer curiosity. At the end of the summer, we had plans to take each other’s virginity. Before Austin had the chance to enter me, his grandmother found us. Austin was forbidden to see me after that. I should have been sad about that. I wasn’t. I didn’t love Austin. I was going to do it just to fill a void.
    Soon after Austin, I realized having a boyfriend wasn’t for me. There are too many complications when it comes to love and sex. For example, my very being is a product of young love. From what my dad tells me, he loved my mother. Of course, now, he recognizes his feelings were infatuation. But he swears, although he was fifteen years old, he would have done everything the exact same way. I think he’s crazy.
    At twenty-one, I can’t imagine being in love, let alone having a child. My dad says I can’t see the good in taking care of someone because I mothered my mom when she was supposed to be there for me. My dad swears, when the time is right, that I will fall in love. And when I do fall in love, I will want to have a family with that person. Again, my dad is seriously cuckoo.
    Maria continues giving me the background on Caydon. From what I understand, Caydon has been dating the same girl since he was in high school. Apparently, his girlfriend is very smart and is trying to get into law school. Since she’s been away, their relationship has seen some stress.
    Without knowing Caydon or Hannah, it doesn’t seem to be a big deal to me. Hannah is away at school focusing on her future. Caydon is here doing what he loves to do. In my opinion, there isn’t a problem.
    “Hey, beautiful.” I feel a pair of strong hands on my waist feeling me from behind. If I had a dollar for every guy that has hit on me tonight, I’d easily leave with a hundred bucks. This is different. The fucker put his hands on me.
    I take the fingers that are stretched on each side of my waist and twist them. I hear a squeal of pain. “Fuck! What the hell, Maria?”
    Shit. I immediately turn around, giving whoever manhandled me a quick view. Clearly, he was looking for my cousin. “Fuck.” The large man is still clutching the fingers I wounded. “You must be Reece. Sorry, I thought you were my girl.”
    Dammit. “Shorty? I’m so