ignored his question and avoided looking into his crazed eyes by moving to his left. Again, he blocked my path. I crossed my arms and stared off into the morning traffic and pretended to not see him.
“ I swear if he touched you…” He grabbed my face between his palms, forcing me to look at him as he studied me. I pictured the image he beheld—hair bedraggled, eyes puffy—I looked like hell. His frown deepened. “If you let him touch you, I’m going to hurt him.”
I shoved him off me , and he stumbled back from the unexpected push. “You don’t get to tell me who I can sleep with. You slept with my Ellie… my Ellie. She’s my only family in this world, and you fucked her.”
He released me, throwing up his hands. “It was before you. Shit… if I hadn’t, I probably would’ve never met you.”
“ Oh… so it’s fine, then. When we have kids and they ask how we met, we’ll tell them it was fate.” I stretched out my arms and looked up into the sky. “It was divine intervention. Your daddy fucked Auntie Ellie, and she slid him my card so he could screw me over too.”
He pressed his palms against his eyes and rubbed them. “What do you want me to do? I can’t undo it,” he said when he looked back at me.
“ But you could’ve been honest! Both of you could’ve copped to what happened the night she walked in on us. But no… you two conspired to lie to me. You lied about everything .”
He pushed both hands through his hair, yanking the strands in frustration. “If we’d been honest, you would have left me.”
“ At least at that point it wouldn’t have hurt so much.”
“ But at that point nothing would’ve made you give me another chance.”
“ There’s nothing now.” I looked down at our feet.
He flinched. “You said you loved me.”
I smiled as I looked up and shook my head at him. “I loved a liar. Doesn’t that make our love a lie?”
He shook his head rapidly. “No, I showed you the real me and you loved me. Gabriella was a minor detail in my past. It doesn’t change anything that happened between us.”
“ What about my parents ? Were they minor details too? You’ve been hurting me for years without me even knowing it. Seems like it’s what you live to do. Your past keeps coming back to hurt me, Xander.”
He took a step back and looked at me like I ’d slapped him with my comment. He dug both hands in his pockets and looked down at the pavement. He looked almost vulnerable because of my dig, but I couldn’t be concerned with his feelings at that point. Not when he tore out my heart twice and I was still trying to get it to function.
The door behind us swung open and Matt stepped out. He paused, looking back and forth between Xander and me. He came up behind me, put a hand on my waist, and whispered into my ear, “Everything okay?”
Xander glared at him, his injured expression quickly morphing into one of stormy rage. Matt eyed him.
“ If you touched her—”
“ You’ll what?” Matt challenged, his hold on my waist tightening.
Xander stepped forward , and I blocked him. “Go home, Xander.”
“ Come back when you’re man enough to be honest with her,” Matt threw in.
Fuck , this wasn’t like Matt at all. He was the logical one, and this was a revenge tactic I didn’t want to use. I just wanted Xander to go away and let me process everything without him smothering me, or Matt’s alcohol blurring the edges.
Xander removed his h ands from his pockets. His fists were clenched, gaze narrowed in on Matt. I knew if I weren’t between them, there would be a full-on street brawl.
“ Xander.” His gaze shifted to me, but his stance remained in attack mode. “Don’t make this worse.”
He looked at Matt one last time before he took a deep breath and walked off. We stood there watching him until he pulled his car onto the road and cut the corner furiously.
“ That guy is miserable,” Matt said.
I elbowed him in the gut. He grunted.
“Who