small,
sideways smile that nearly melted Luke on the spot. When she turned
to leave the bus, he automatically followed her.
As they stepped down
into the humid July evening, Lenny turned and pursed her lips. She
narrowed her eyes and Luke braced himself for what he thought was
going to be an admonishment for him looking at her butt as they had
exited the vehicle. He thought he'd diverted his eyes before she'd
noticed, but now he wasn't so sure.
“ What?”
Luke asked innocently.
Lenny sucked in a
breath and hesitated before taking a step closer to him. Luke
reflexively inhaled her scent and hoped she didn't notice. If she
did, she didn't say. She held his eyes for a beat.
“ I
know I don't know the whole story about what happened with Mike...”
she spoke slowly and Luke could tell she was trying to find the right
words, “but I really admire how you all are supporting his
sobriety by keeping alcohol off the buses.”
“ We're
a family, and family's support each other,” he explained
simply. It really was that simple and he was thankful that she had
reminded him of that. Of the real reason they were embarking on this
possibly disaster-filled adventure once again.
“ I
don't have parents or siblings or anything like that,” Luke had
no idea why he felt the compulsory need to spill his life secrets to
her, he didn't even know her. He could say it was something in her
eyes that he trusted. Or the way she turned her head slightly when
she was listening to him that signaled his words were safe in the
space that existed between them. “These guys are more than
friends to me. They are my family.”
She reached up to
touch her lips, like she wanted to ask a question but had to stop
herself. He was curious what she would ask; what direction her
questions would take them in this impromptu albeit personal
conversation.
Lenny's eyes drifted
to something over his shoulder and Luke knew she was suddenly very
far away.
“ Yeah,”
she agreed, her voice rough. And then, as if realizing where she
was, her eyes snapped back to his and she pulled the clipboard to her
chest protectively. “Well, I'm pretty much done here for the
day,” she began to back away from him and forced a smile. “You
better get some rest tonight, you have to be amazing tomorrow.”
Luke gave her a nod
as she departed quickly, heading for the hotel. He wondered what had
spooked her. Maybe that was in his head, but it seemed like
something was on her mind, and damn if he didn't want to follow her
and ask her what it was. He didn't understand the impulsive need he
felt to keep talking to her. Figure her out, let her figure him out.
“ Ah,
hell,” he muttered to himself. Sticking his phone in his back
pocket, he watched Lenny's blonde hair disappear through the
entrance. He thought about trying to catch up to her but he waited a
few extra minutes to let her get ahead. He didn’t need to know
where she was going. Probably to her room. He didn’t need to
know which room was hers. He didn’t need to think about her at
all. In fact, he should probably try to stay as far away from her as
possible. She worked for them now, and sleeping with her, while that
would probably get her out of his head, wasn’t a good idea.
Not to mention the fact that he'd be starting out the tour with the
same bad decisions that had plagued him all during the last one.
Besides, she didn’t
seem like the kind of girl to crawl in bed with a rock star. She was
better than that.
And that's exactly
why he wanted to explore that gorgeous chaos he could see behind her
blue eyes.
Luke made it up back
to the top floor without seeing Lenny again. He quietly changed his
clothes and headed to the hotel weight room. Maybe an hour of
intense sweating would help sort out his confused desires.
An hour accidentally
turned into two. Even though he kept repeating to himself to stop
thinking about her, Lenny was all that filled his thoughts. Where had
she come from? What was her story? As